Across the oceans

chapter 1

"You can love someone and still choose to say goodbye."

Maybe this goodbye can cause you immense pain but you have to bear it and move forward in your life. But question is. Is it possible to move on? Can you move on from the moments you have spend together or the memories you have with that person. Yes we have to pretend that we have moved on but still there is a corner in our heart which always craved for that one touch, for that one warm hug where we lost ourselves to that person. That complete surender which only that one person can give. And for me I have been away from that person and it's been 1 month.
Today is my appointment with my gynecologist. I am getting ready to meet her so that i can see how my baby is doing. Yes i am pregnant for 7 and half month, in these seven months my life has been rollercoaster of emotions and life changing events.

I pull cash out from my wallet giving it to cab driver while getting out of the cab going towards clinic. After 15 minutes waiting my name was called out and i go to doctor's cabin. It take another twenty minutes for whole checking up process. After that we both settle and she begin to describe everything to me as i listen to everything attentively.

Sitting on my bed holding instant noodles a tear drop from my eyes.
No i was not crying because i am having instant noodles but i am missing that person who always scold me to be precise" why are you eating this junk food you know na it's not good for baby leave it I'll make something healthy for you." These were the exact words he always says to me whenever i try to eat these noodles. But now no one make anything for me or my baby. With these thoughts i finished my noodles and lay down to sleep.

Sunrays disturb my sleep as i again forgot to pull down the curtains. After my morning routine i make a small breakfast for me and my baby. After eating a sat down with my laptop to find a job for me as from last 15 days i hadn't done anything and to stay here i need a job to support myself.

In evening i decided to go for a walk as today is bright sunny day.
It was beautiful scenre a bridge on river, slowly flowing wind and sound of water. These things brought back so many memories of the past. How all these things started and how i ended up here.

Past

It all started 1 year ago when i was in paris with my husband. I got married to Ranbir Kapoor 3 years ago when i was working in his father's company and become his P.a. He liked my attitude towards work and how i handled all the things and become responsible for everything being a elder sibling who had a younger brother to look after i had started my professional journey at a young age so that i can support me and my brother shehbaaz. After working for 1 year one day mr. Kapoor ask me to marry his son. I don't want to marry him but didn't have any choice as mr kapoor have given me opportunity when i needed the most. So after thinking everything i decided to accept this proposal. We got married with punjabi traditions as it was arranged marriage it was good at start ranbir's parents were good to me as well as ranbir but after one year everything started to go downhill after sudden death of mr kapoor. As ranbir was not focused on business which cause him to loose many projects. Which cause him to be always in grumpy mood as well as he always get angry on small things he started to get drunk and bring new girls at home which hurts like bitch. On the other hand his mom always persuad me to have his child so that we can start new even i also want to do that as marriage was a scarred relationship for me which should not be broken so easily and this relationship was the only hope and pillar of my life. But at the end it also did not happen i tried every mean possible to get pregnant with his child but it was like it was not meant to. And one night because of his excessive alcohol consumption he fainted when we bring him to hospital  doctor told us that je damaged his internal organs because of his alcohol habbit which cause him to impotency. His chance are only 30%. Even with this i stayed with him but things get complicated and at last i decided to divorce him. He divorced me with only one condition that was i habe to pay his debts as i have already started my other job and have previous savings i cleared his debts and started my new journey.

But after being divorced for 15 days i got to know that i am pregnant and soon going to be mom. With this news i knew that there will be so mant questions so i decided to go to india as my company already want me to go there and settle their business. Adter this news it was best opportunity for me to go from this situation and bear my child without any problems. But little dod i know that this new journey will change my whole life.