My Idol. (NAMKOOK)

Discussion and Confessions.

Jungkook's Pov

'I need my hyungs. They can tell me what to do.' I mumbled to myself as I set out to look for the rowdy bunch somewhere in the spacious apartment. I needed their guidance and support on how to approach this new problem of mine and how to get through it without ruining everything between Namjoon and I.

After I found out the depths of my feelings for Namjoon, it has been weighing so heavily on my mind that the man in question is starting to notice something isn't quite right with me. And honestly how could he not? My behavior has been all over the place since my shameful drinking escapade three nights ago, and I have to say I've become slightly distant whenever he comes around me.

I seriously tried to act somewhat normal whenever we were in a room together but sometimes I just flat out ran away whenever he came near me. It's not like I intentionally want to ignore him, but I get so stiff and awkward whenever I recall my drunken fantasies and have to resist the urge to come clean and apologize to him!

So it was with a heavy heart that I shied away from him and went to great lengths to avoid confrontations. It was indeed challenging since we shared a bed but I was determined to not make a fool out of myself by blurting out that I used him for fap material and beg for his forgiveness.

The past three days were absolutely nerve wracking but bearable because the storm cleared up the day after my drunk revelation and we were able to return back to our long and odd hour work schedules. Our hours pulled us away from each other or at least didn't give us long enough alone moments for him to ask me what is wrong without the other members eavesdropping at the door. I also made sure to fall asleep before he gets home every night to avoid his questions but all of this seems futile because eventually he will catch me one day. So in other words, I need a solution to my problem pronto.

I hastened my steps to find the others, knowing this is my one and only chance to talk to them in private now that Namjoon went down to the 1st floor to attend a meeting. I wandered down the hall and heard the sound of their voices coming from up ahead and found them all sitting in the game room playing a game of pool. I stepped inside the room and Jin, who was resting his hip on the table, was the first to notice my presence.

"Oh Jungkookie, want to join in?" He greets me, looking up from the table as Taehyung prepares to make his shot.

"Umm no, but I have a problem and I need all of your help." And the mood instantly shifts to one of concern as five pairs of eyes turn towards me and gives me their undivided attention.

"Are you okay?" Jimin asked, brows furrowing with worry.

"What's wrong?" Jin asked, standing up straight with a serious expression as he waited for my response.

"How bad is it?" Taehyung raises a brow.

"Should I call Namjoon?" Hoseok offers, coming around the table as if he was ready to drag Namjoon away from his meeting right then and there but Yoongi shushes them with a wave of his hand.

"Guys, let him talk! Don't bombard him with so many questions." Yoongi frowns as I step in front of Hobi to stop him from leaving.

"No, no no! Please don't call Namjoon! It's actually about him." I pleaded, gesturing for them to stay where they are as I closed the door behind me. Everyone except Yoongi stares at me with a look of confusion while the cat eyed male simply nodded his head as if he already knew what I was about to say.

"Okay...we won't. So tell us what happened." Hobi says with worry in his eyes as I begin to pace back and forth to get my scattered thoughts in order.