The Journalist's Diary

Entry #7 : Golden

Hope you enjoy this chapter <3

Living the life that I wanted (Day 4)

Actually it's my Day 5 here because last night, Kongpob and I drank a kiwi wine. I'm not actually an alcoholic one but it's late when we realize that the alcohol content of the wine is quite high and it's a kiwi one. Kongpob has these instincts and he already guessed that I'm allergic to kiwi. We went to his friend and I can remember that guy is already wearing a panjama who seems ready to sleep. The funny thing is here, I can remember how goofy Kongpob is and how our conversation shifts into a serious one. It's really hilarious. But then, I managed to have a little glimpsed about Kongpob. That small thing itself means a lot.

Living the life that I wanted (Day 5)

I never expect that I'll be an instant teacher here. Sometimes I really don't understand myself and yet Kongpob puts me in a situation wherein I needed to teach the children! But all my frustrations were gone when Khaofang (one of the students) stands up and ask if I could take a picture of her. She's so cute and I really controls myself not to coo on her cuteness too much. So the other kids also join. But there's one boy who silently followed his classmate and avoided me. I guessed, I need to earn the trust of this baby boy. I really had fun capturing photos with the childrens but it got interrupted when Kongpob came back and dismissed the kids. He said that its already past lunch and I should be aware of the time next time. Oh and btw, he gave a permission to  invade his spaces but not to extent that I'll be out of the line. That's a great thing, don't you think so?

Living the life that I wanted (Day 7)

Nothing much. Its still the same day that I have to chased that freaking great photographer.

Living the life that I wanted (Day 12)

I came with Aim and he toured me around the island. Kongpob is not around also. I asks Aim where the hell is that guy but Aim is such a loyal bestie. I had a great time. At 5pm, I sat in the shore and watch the sunset. Hay it's more beautiful than the sunset in Bangkok.

Living the life that I wanted (Day 20)

So here's the tea Mr. Diary, the old lady mistaken me and Kongpob as a couple. Argh and that super great photographer, instead of correcting the old lady's wrong assumptions, he held my waist and pretends. Oh ghad that was so embarrassing! But in the end, we got some discount on the fruits we purchased from her because the old lady said, it's rare to see some same-sex couple in her mini-fruit stand and we look so cute so she gave us some discount. Oh and the fruits, he said it's for his Auntie. I don't know who's Auntie and I also don't why the hell he dragged me to go with him.

Living the life that I wanted (Day 23)

We're getting along together. And it's a great sign!

Living the life that I wanted (Day 27)

He invited me to a birthday party. I don't who's the celebrant but yeah shy to admit but I'm excited. These past few days, I'm very glad that he's slowly approaching me, like asking me about my work, and then I will also asks him some questions too, if it gets too personal he will just shrugged me off. But I'm okay on what we have. Sometimes, I secretly record our conversation but I'll delete it immediately because guilt suddenly tripped me wtf! I'm also very careful in my words  because I don't want him to grew suspicious on me.

Living the life that I wanted (Day 31)

I never really thought that I will be super emotional in to a birthday party. I can confirm now that I'm already attached to this place and I'm really scared on the things that will happen in the future. I don't want to lie anymore! The kids doesn't deserve me! Kongpob too. I'm so sad right now and my guilty feelings creeping all over me. But do I have a choice? In the first place, I agreed with this. I felt the aliveness again like I was reborn. If I could just choose before, maybe I'm not right here. But without these happenings, I wouldn't met a sunshine like Kongpob.