The Dark Side

So.

"You know meeting Bangtan Boys is a huge deal for everyone, you seem so... hm chill," a strange raspy voice spoke from behind.

He happened to be a tall dark haired, angelic faced delight. He was apart of your comfort, also more of a fanboy as each of his fantasies were in complete moderate detail.

Lee Hanjon happened to be the mans name, you barely knew this guy and it felt like you'd been in love with his personality for a long time. He was charming and by far admiring. From cute and short compliments to extended hugs when you needed them most. He happened to magically appear just in time.

As for you of suffering deep depression, all you could do is break down.

It isn't easy to be an icon but also a 'normal' person from even outside perspectives. You have multiple jobs, and just about any tiny bit of time that you have to yourself at the dorm or new home, you feel lonely. Although you do have your best friend Ilinae, you still can feel emptiness and no sort of purpose in this life.

It's hard to push through.

You needed complete reassurance and relief and that's what he's been here for.

You've only known him for about two months approximately, but yet seem so comfortable.

"Bangtan..." you say as you began to come back into reality, "I've never known them, although I do admit, I've heard of them from a few of my producers and hosts." You finished as you sigh in relief to finally realize your backtrack of thought process.

"They seem like kind, talented, and even a bit possessive men," You continued.

Hanjon began to stare at you in uttered confusion, most likely thinking that "how could this girl, who lives in Korea, not know one of Big Hits most successful boy bands?" It was that look, you knew he would say it eventually. The interviewer gave off that same expressive vibe.

"How do you.." he was then cut off.

"Not know the biggest boy band in Korea, yea I just don't... I've never actually heard of them except for just one time and that was about a few years ago," you finished throughly.

He began to frown, so you followed along and gave him a bit of a pout. He's never really mentioned bts, instead it's always 'blackpink this and that' (no hate, just a thing.)

"Not everyone has to know them, I'm sorry," You pouted even more while speaking.

Although your genre of music has been Pop, R&B, along with classic music, you never really listen to Kpop songs a lot, in fact it's rare.

You cooed at Hanjon before speaking, trying to find an excuse to not be rude before leaving for more business, "I have to go you big baby, I have some more stuff to take care of in my store," You said cutely before hugging him and walking out from his home.

I want to watch a movie tonight, but what should it be? Ilinae shouldn't be back until 2 days

Hmm spicy.

For some odd reason, you've liked to watch movies with more of a intimate presentation, at least to know what to do and how to do it.

Later at home

As you got out from the shower with steamy skin and drenched hair flowing separately, you began to look into the mirror.

For the most part, you feel confident, just not as well as you should appreciate your image.

You feel bit anxious because no one is there and you debate to yourself whether you should walk around in your undergarments or not.

Eh it's my house, why not..
Oh right I have no actual explanation
Just do it y/n, no ones coming over
Fight your anxiety.