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Chapter 6

1 month later:

Forth's pov:

I slowly opened my eyes and blinked profusely trying to clear my vision.

I looked around after I managed to open my eyes properly.

Beam was sleeping on my right side and Ming was sleeping on my left.

I stared at their peaceful expressions.

The last 4 months have been nothing less than a nightmare. 

I don't even know how they've been putting up with me. 

My tantrums, mood swings, nightmares, panic attacks. 

I didn't think they would stay with me for so long. 

They even changed universities and their majors for my sake. 

And the completely new side of me that I myself didn't know about until recently was a big surprise for everyone including myself. 

I sighed and looked up at the ceiling. 

That night... 

It was the worst night of my life. 

The amount of self-hatred, disgust, and pain I was in was so unbearable. 

The one thing holding me together was the thought that I at least managed to protect Wayo from experiencing the same thing. 

I thought I had done the right thing and that he and Pha would be happy. 

But the reality turned out to be so different. 

In a matter of days, I lost everything. 

Lam, Park, Max, Tul, Kit, Pha, all of them turned against me. 

They pointed at me saying I was the one who attacked Wayo. 

I was really confused the first time Pha beat me up. 

I thought he had just misunderstood something. 

I even told him to ask Wayo. 

But then I realized, it wasn't just a misunderstanding. 

Wayo had told all of them that I had attacked him that night. That I had forced myself on him. 

I couldn't-still can't figure out why he did that. 

Why did he frame me when I protected him with my own body? 

I gave myself so he could escape from there unharmed. 

But what did I get in return?

Only pain and isolation. 

I couldn't even defend myself in front of them.

My voice refused to corporate at all. 

Nothing came to no matter how hard I tried to talk. 

I felt as if there was a lump blocking my throat. 

And that only served to confirm their suspicions and increase their hatred. 

They thought I didn't say anything because I was being arrogant. 

I was so close to jumping off the roof of the dorm building and killing myself. 

But then Ming came to me. 

He went against his own best friend and everyone else to stay with me. 

He believed in me when no one else did.