SATURN, levi ackerman ✓

fourth ; y/n

"a week." the doctor informs
me and your mom who was
shaking beside me. "he has a
week maximum, most likely
less. i apologize, we've
tried everything."

one week.

seven days. and that's
only if he's lucky.

it was hard to block out kuchel's
cries, you know?

it hurt.

it hurt so much i felt like
bursting into tears but i had
to stay strong.

for her and for you.

but i'm not even perfect
myself.

"ms. ackerman," i say, and
your mom wipes her eyes before
returning my gaze.

and i realize i haven't seen her
enough once i get a good look
of her.

because i noticed her eyes are
so red. bloodshot red.

"i'm-i'm sorry, y/n. it's...
i don't know what to do." she
admit, and looked through
the window from outside,
watching you sleep.

anything you do now seems
to make me want to burst
into tears.

"he's, uh-"

i didn't even know how to
comfort her.

"levi...will be okay."

he won't. stop lying to her,
y/n.

"hey...i know you're trying not to
cry. if you don't want to do it
here, i understand. you can
get your alone time and i'll
look after my son." kuchel
suddenly says.

she smiles, and i know she's
using all her strength to do so.

your mom is an angel,
you realize that, right, levi?

"a-are you sure?" i ask.

"yes." she pat my back and
gave me a small thumbs up.

"i realize i haven't thanked
you enough so thank you.
i am grateful that you chose
to love him."

"i'm sorry, miss ackerman, but
i'm the grateful one. you raised
him well."

i left and tried finding a less
crowded place in the hospital,
and luckily for me i found a
bathroom.

i looked at myself in the mirror-
i had clearer eye bags, my hair
looks like a mess and only now i
realized how much this affected
me physically.

but that's not the reason i got
myself alone.

one tear turned into two, and
soon enough i couldn't help but
let every emotion i've held for
so long right here, right now.