TRAPPED (sketchxreader)

18

Elijah-

Dear diary,

It's been 8 days of me not using the bracelet and god has it been amazing! Ive been spending a lot more time with y/n. She makes me so happy, we told all of our friends that we're dating. They ship us.

Denis was upset the first few days when I told I wasn't going to use the bracelet but then he understood. We hang out at the forest almost everyday. Me and Ethan even went to visit the abandoned cabin we used go to as kids. Yeah not gonna lie, we cried talking about all the memories. 

Life has been perfect, I got my brother back, I made friends that are going to last for life and of course I found the love of my life. Today is the day of the play, I am super nervous, more than I should be.

People are going to hate me, I don't deserve such a big role. Amie is so going to overshadow me, she is SOO good!! It'll be so embarrassing for me. The fact that all of family, friends and girlfriend are coming there to support me only makes it scarier than it already is.

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I close my diary and get ready. I can hear my parents and Ethan talking downstairs, its making my heart race. They are looking forward to this thing, I cant ruin it. I take deep breaths and try to calm myself down. I am freaking out so much, the reality of doing a fucking show in front of hundreds of people is finally setting in.

I take hesitant steps down the stairs and see my family, sitting on the couch probably waiting for me. They are all ready and dressed up.

I make it halfway down the stairs before running back up.  My heart is in my stomach. I cant do this, I sit down at my desk. My eyes land on the drawer, I open it and see the bracelet. That's where I hid it.

I start playing with it without realising. All the rings are red except one, because I never hurt Ethan. Suddenly, I hear someone bursting open my room's door. My heart drops.

"Lets go dude." Ethan is standing at my doorway.

"Yeah-h." I quickly put away the bracelet in my pocket before Ethan sees it. I go downstairs with him and my parents wish me luck. I smile weakily in response.

We get in the car and hit the road. Ethan is staring out the window and my parents are talking about their work lives, I grab the bracelet out from my pocket. I inspect it, it looks pretty.

My gut tells me to put it around my wrist and I do it. Using this bracelet had become a drug to me for a while, I couldn't contain it. I am way past that phase now. I'll just wear it as an accessory, it matches with the rest of my costume.

"Elijah, sweetheart. Are you okay? You're acting a bit weird?" I notice my mom talking to me.

"Huh- no i'm-m fine." I reply. She looks at me with sympathy-filed eyes, nods then looks away.

Seriously! Is it that obvious? I am shitting my pants from fear but no one needs to know that.

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We make it to our school and I rush to where the audience is instead of back stage. I need to see y/n, she'll stop me from going crazy.

I stand there and scan the room till I see my girlfriend. I run over to her like a lost kid and hug her. She hugs me back tightly, saying I look like a traffic cone. My costume is a bit orange. I laugh. She makes me feel comfortable, like I'm at the edge of a beach. All of my nervousness wears off and time stops. It's just me and y/n-

"Why are you wearing the bracelet?" y/n asks with a disappointed look on her face. I feel tensed up again.

"I don't know." I mumble.