Hooked

❤️Chapter 13❤️

Ughh omg I'm so done with that boy I can't do this anymore I can't be with him or anyone anymore I just mess everything! I run out of the house and I don't even know where I'm going tears running down my face I just start running not even thinking to were I'm going I just wanna be as far away from that boy as possible. I see a park and just go to it to be alone I think about everything that that boy has done and I'm just done with him I grab my blade and cut my wrist right on my van blood starts rushing out. I feel so happy nothing can stop me from dieing now I have no one to live for so what's the point in life? I ask myself no one I yell I end up passing out from losing a lot of blood. I wake up and find myself in the hospital I start freaking out where am I I scream then I see Michael. He looks at me with sad eyes. "Riley what have you done?" "Nothing what are you talking about?" "Riley I'm not going to yell at you or ask you to tell me why you did what you did you'll tell me when your ready" "God Michael I did this because I'm done with him! He makes me so mad I can't be with him anymore I don't have any reason to be on this earth so why did you do do what you did?" "Riley he loves you he needs you! And because I care about you ash does and so does Ryan he really does and your my baby I can't lose you sexy;)" "well I don't need him!! Or anyone okay!!!"
Micheal crawls up into the hospital bed with me I push him away but he only gets closer I yell at him but he grabs me and pulls me into his muscular but sexy built body and fits his body right with mine he rest my head on his chest and he just holds me and doesn't let me go for anything. We set up and he puts me in his lap he rests he's hands on my upper thighs I scream a little but then I feel his lips crash with mine I go to push him away put he pulls me closer into him and doesn't stop kissing me for anything he was so perfect I think to myself just as I realize what I'm about to do I don't care I wrap my legs around his waist and place his hands on my ass he looks at me with confusion I cock my eye at him and give him a long that says yes I did that and she just smiles then I throw my body on his and push my lips to his there warm and soft they feel so great mixed with mine I get this feeling inside of me that tells me not to stoping kissing him so I don't I just keep going then I hear the door click but don't pay attention to it I just keep kissing Michael then I hear someone yell with the fuck is going on? I turn around to see ryan and just roll my eyes at him Michael goes to get up but I pull him down and crash my lips with his and make sure ryan sees what I'm doing and he does witch makes me him so mad he goes and pulls Michael off of me and hits him in the face I get up and hit Ryan In the face. "What the fuck do you think your doing to my boyfriend you dump ass!" "Your boyfriend?" "Umm yess Micheal duh!" " what the hell Riley what about us?" " there is no us!! Ryan you fucking hurt me. And when I fucking almost killed myself well I could have if it wouldn't have been for Michael ughh!! But anyway you weren't there you don't fucking care!" I go over to Michael and set I. His lap Ryan looks at me he picks me up and lays me on the bed. Him and Micheal start talking and then Ryan hits Michael again and then I can't see or hear anything I wake up to see I'm not in the hospital anymore I go to get up but can't move my arms and legs are tied up I start to scream but nothing comes out it's hopeless I feel tears coming down my eyes. But then I think to myself why am I crying? Remember Riley you said there's no point in living and I'm dating Michael or was that to just get back at Ryan? I think to myself but as I'm thinking the door opens and I see ash I tell him to unhook me and she does he already knows what's going on I ask him were Ryan is he says he's room I go in and see him with some girl there both naked and in bed together I slam the door and run to Michaels room why his room I think to myself at I lay on his bed it smells like boy and something fresh I like that smell I think to myself then I hear Michael say hey love what's wrong? "Nothing just Ryan hooking up with fucking girls!" " how could he not know I did what I did to make him made?" "Babe he's Ryan if he don't get he's way he does stupid shit" I start sobbing and can't stop so Michael comes around and cuddles me into his arms i Barry my face into his chest and just cry hot stemming tears I get his tank top soaking wet but he doesn't care he just holds and then we fall asleep together. I wake up around 5:00am I see I'm in micheals arms and it all comes back to me I being to see something red all over my arm but I think to myself I never cut or did it just start beefing from were I did? But then I see Michaels arm and see a deep cut right no his are I scream and brake down in tears Michael wakes up and asks me what's wrong I run away from him and pull my knees to my chest and start shaking he comes up behind me and picks me up he looks into my eyes and says "babe what's wrong with you?" "Why Michael why??!" " oh baby I hate seeing you like this I don't like my love getting hurt by a dam jerk you deserve so much better and then to see you hurt yourself that kills me even more" Michael why me!!" " I- I like you r-Reilly" omg why do people make you feel like they care and love you so fucking much and then make you love them so much more than someone you really care and love and never wanna hurt but then you fall for both guys and then you end up hurting both of them and your friends hate you for like one that you know you shouldn't but you can't help it and then you just feel like cutting and drinking and smoking wil solve your problems because hopefully you would die. I go into Luke and calums room because knowing them they would be the ones to have beer,cigarettes, pills and razor blades. I find pills and beer so I grab a few bottles of beer and pills and take the hole bottle I think to myself why did he hook up with her? Why do I still love him after what he did? I'm done with everything I'm done with trying im done I'm staying outta everyone's life it's better if I leave. I poor the hole bottle of pills in my mouth one bye one as I take each one in I feel my body getting sleepy that's good so I just numb the pain even more bye drinking it away