How it all started ...
Falling in love never entered my vocabulary. Well let me rephrase that .. falling in love to other guys was never became my option.
I'm not sure if I'm just weird because I know this is not normal. We were born and raised in the same family, sharing the same blood but why my heart can't stop from falling for him .. deeply rooted.
Not because I was deprived of attention that's why I'm feeling this. My parents love me the way parents should love their only daughter. I have tons of friends who cares for me the same way I care for them. I have a fair share of suitors as well.
And most of all I am just a simple 18 year old girl who never seeks attention to anyone. But how come I got smitten by him? Of all people ..
I was tracing the contours of his face on the picture rested on top of the bureau at the far side of the living room when I heard faint steps behind me.
I know it's him. I'm not sure why when it comes to his presence my senses are extra sensitive.
Blood is rushing up to my face and I couldn't stop my heart from beating wildly against my chest.
Damn ! I'm like a little girl seeing her crush for the first time ! But I always see him .. everyday .. but why my heart cannot be tamed whenever he's too close?
" Cass .. "
I heard his soothing voice. It's as if he's caressing every fiber of my skin whenever he's saying my name.
I composed myself and turned around to look at him.
" Yes? " I asked casually but deep inside I can feel a chaotic run in my chest.
" Can we talk? " his handsome face appeared to be serious while he's looking at me.
I swallowed a lump in my throat. He wants us to talk? Has he found out already?
" I-I have something to do. " I said to evade him.
I took two steps but when I was already beside him he grabbed my arm and dragged me.
" H-hey .. " I tried to yank my arm from his grip but he was too strong that I cannot free myself from him.
He strode towards his room while he's dragging me. I can feel the pain from his grip but there something else stirring inside me.
He immediately released my arm as soon as we entered his room. I felt a sudden longing when my arm became free from his touch. Sh*t ! This ain't good !
" What?! " I tried to mask my fear on a pretense of anger.
" What the hell is happening to you?! " he asked in equal tone.
I looked at him puzzled.
" You've been ignoring me for the past two months. We used to be so close, Cass. " there was disappointment on his voice and something else I couldn't put a name into.
I unlocked my eyes from him, " I was just busy, Kuya Gab. " I lied.
Calling him kuya felt so wrong for me. And why having feelings for him felt so right?
" Don't give me that f*ck ! "
I don't know where this anger of him is coming from. Perhaps because we were really close back then? Those times when I haven't realized yet my feelings for him.
" What do you want me to say? " I asked hopelessly. Please don't push me I might reveal my feelings for you !
His face softened, " I just want to know what's happening. Did I do something wrong? " his voice is full of concern that all I want right now is to hug him tight.
