Secretary Kim

Part 4

Taehyung POV

I know I like her and so does she. I can feel it in her eyes. The way she looks at me, the way she talks to me and others is so comparable that I realized how lucky I am besides Jungkook. I was unable to resist anymore and I kissed her and kissing me back passionately. But is this right? What if I can't love her enough? What if she starts hating me after being with me? What if my responsibility comes before our love? Will she be able to understand me? Will I be able to convince her? Can we be able to cross the hurdles together? Many thoughts are running in my mind. All can't be answered by love. I have a great responsibility for myself besides my life. Kim Hae rin, my sister. I should take care of her. Can y/n understand all these and wait for me? Can she cope up with all these? No... definitely not. She is way too sensitive than me. I can't let her down. I can't give her any hope. As this thought struck my mind, I broke the kiss but she hold my collar and pulled me towards her to kiss her back. And then I rejected her kiss. I took few steps back and I can clearly see anger and disappointment in her eyes. She kept silent, head down. I walked away to Jungkook's car. 

"Jk, drive Y/n's car, I'll drive in yours. I'll return the car tomorrow" I said as I got into the driver's seat. 

"Huh? Okay," he replied walking towards Y/n. 

I drove aimless. Not sure where I should go to get rid of those stares y/n gave me. Her eyes, which were deep as any ocean, kept flashing in front of me. No, she shouldn't love me. I'm not the one for her. I should let her go. I shouldn't confess her by any chance. These are the things I finally decided as I let a hard sob alone in the car parked aside the river. Only if I had a proper life, she would be mine by now.

End of Taehyung POV

"How dare he reject my kiss" you screamed hard enough to freak Jungkook out. 

"When did he? He did kiss you back in front of everyone, right? Wait...did you guys kiss again?" He questions you skeptically. 

You explain to him what happened in the parking lot.

"Why the hell did you kiss him?"

"Cause I like him okay? And that idiot rejected my kiss. Does he think low about me now? Do I look like a slut?" You start to cry as soon as you finishing shouting.

"Y/n ah, are you sure you like him? I mean it's been just 3 months"

"Kookie can't you understand by the way I behave towards him? I like him so much. I didn't get it until today" you hung your head low.

"Calm down babe. This isn't anything, okay. Just talk to him tomorrow. Maybe he's disturbed by what happened at the reunion. He might be too flustered to think all these. Give him some time okay?" Jungkook tries to calm you down.

-"Maybe. Whatever, I'll make him mine. I'll not give up. He is mine at the end" you smirk wiping your tears.

You both reach y/n home and he walks you inside. He keeps thinking about the way you said you'll make him yours. He finally let out the doubt 

"Y/n ah, are you becoming normal or more monstrous? I couldn't get the way you're thinking" he let out a sigh.

"More monstrous? You mean you were thinking that I'm a monster all this time. And now you think getting someone we love is being monstrous? Woah! I'm sure a dumbass to think that understood me Jungkook" you stare at him with glistening eyes and go to your room. 

"Y/n ah that's not what I meant. I'm sorry" Jungkook keeps shouting behind you but you go up and shut the door. 

You cry to sleep.