Dead Beat ✔(Editing)[1]

Chapter 7 : Glorius heartbreak (new)

I pulled my knees up and put my chin on them as I gazed outside. The beautiful, busy city of New York waved back with brightness while I laid in the darkness of my room.

Everyone had left when party had ended, leaving cleaners who were doing their job to bring back home in its usual condition. I sighed, playing with my fingers.

Where did I go wrong?

Everything was going exceptionally good but my life turned upside down in few days. I was in huge turmoil. The options that I could see in front of me were only two. First, marry that person and second, resolve to begging in front of him.

Begging would do nothing good even. He is just a cold slab of chilled ethanol filled ice.

May god help me! Amen!

I huffed and got up before pulling out holy Bible from the bookshelf. Reading something religious might help me or provide a sense of peace.

"I have told you these things, so that in me you may have peace. In this world you will have trouble. But take heart! I have overcome the world."

"Peace I leave with you; my peace I give you. I do not give to you as the world gives. Do not let your hearts be troubled and do not be afraid."

"Creating praise on their lips. Peace, peace, to those far and near," says the Lord. "And I will heal them."

"Let the peace of Christ rule in your hearts, since as members of one body you were called to peace. And be thankful."

I relaxed back into the cushion after reading what I desired and it did help me. All I needed was faith in god, in good or bad, doesn't matter.

I kept the book back and stood up to go to sleep. Atleast I could sleep with blank and free mind. I had whole three days to think in the world. I picked up my phone and sent one message to Ashton

Need to meet tomorrow! At the restaurant near my penthouse. Ten thirty in morning. 

I tried falling asleep while drawing patterns on the cold bed, blanket warming me up and succeeded. 

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I nervously rubbed my hand, waiting for Ashton to show up. I bounced my legs again and again, wanting to escape from this. What was I actually doing? I had no fucking idea. My brain was blank and heart was dumb.

I knew only one thing I was supposed to do. It was to tell everyone that I was marrying to someone after three days and that someone was not Ashton.

I chuckled, shaking my head as I sipped on the juice. Yesterday only I was kissing Ashton and today I was going to break his heart. One thing was good that our personal pictures of yesterday were not given to media. Jesus christ, help me and save me.

I took deep breaths to calm myself down. There was no good in weeping in front of god. Even god helps the ones who help themselves. 

I had to be strong, calm, wise and cunning.

"My beautiful Caitlyn," I jumped out of my seat and the glass in my hand slipped, spilling the juice and the broken glass all over. 

I gasped and looked at Ashton in surprise and dread. I paled as my hands shook while I looked at the mess created by me, breathing heavily.

"Hey! I am so sorry. I didn't know you would react this way," Ashton reached out to me, rubbing my back, "Love, it is okay. It was just a glass."

I shuddered and removed his hand from my shoulders. I pushed my chair away, getting up hastily.