SECRETS

Chapter 3 - The smile on my face.

The next few days happend without progress. He continued to be snobbish. I continued to stress myself out just to ignore the fact that he's around. I told Nacy the truth about Miggy...

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January 9,2013. Bee was absent, it was hers and Judes 3rd year and 4th month anniversary. They planned to saty out the whole day. Nacy and I were together the whole time.  I found the urge to tell her what exactly washappening to me once Miggy walked past behind us.

"Uhm, Nace?" I said softly.

"Mm?" She replied while she munched on her chips.

"I gotta tell you something.." I trailed off

"I know you do. Boy drama huh?" She said

"Kinda?" I said reluctantly

"Spill babe." She says

"Okay, so you remember MIguel? The guy from Bee's. Ronald's son?" I said quietly.

"Uhm yea. Bea despises him, how could I not know?" She raised her eyebrow

"Okay, promise me you wont tell a soul." I say.

She rolls her eyes. "Just say it MIa."

"I like him." I said, so softly that I thought I am the only one to hear it.

"What?" She exclaimed. "No, you're kidding. You barely even know him!" She hissed.

"Thats the point! I'm being like this because I'm not even sure who he really is! There's something about him.Too hidden that you may not even see it. I see him in my dreams. Call me freaky, but Im just saying the truth. My heart skips a beat everytime he passes by.. And here it goes again.."

Miguel passed in front of us. A notebook in his right hand. He looks like he's finding someone..

"What are you saying Amelia? Are you saying you're in-love with Bee's stepbrother?" She frowns.

"No, not in love. I just feel like theres..  A connection." I said

She sighs. "You're just confused dude. It's impposible. You know that." She said.

The bell rings, and I knew that my revelation to my bestfriend, is officially over.

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January 21,2013 - Sociology class.

Sir Angelo, our mentor was blabbing about a project... And I was doodling on my book. Miguel was 6 seats away from me. He never glanced my way. I knew this because, now and then, i'd simply rotate my eyes and peek at him through my long mahogany hair.

"Meyor, you are going with Soriano. You're research will be on, malnutrition." Sir Angelo says.

I was awestruck. I glanced at MIguel, who was now taking down notes.. Corpuz.. Miguel Corpuz. I. Was. Partnered to him. Later on, we were asked to talk to our partner. Of course, it was awkward..

"Hi" I said.

"So, we were assigned to the greenfields. Which is obviously not green anymore. I'm going to research on its geography and you, well, do what you want." He said quickly.

"We're partners here. No need to be mean." I smiled faintly.

"This is a project." He says.

"Yea, and we -I gesture my pointing finger at him, back to me- are partners. I hopeyou know that it means, WE work together." I said with fierceness.

"Well, work on that. We'll compare tomorrow. Happy?" He smiles.

It's the first time I've seen him smile. My heart beats fast. I look away.

We go back to our seats and sir continues talking. Apparently, we were going to spend one whole week on sociology. Meaning, WE were going to spend 1 whole week at Greenfields. Meaning,WE just the two of us... My train of thought was ruined when the bell rang. I wasnt really sure if I was happy or nervous... All I know is that if Nacy hears this, she would surely make fun of me.

I walk towards the door and someone pats my shoulder. Miguel. My heart beats fast once again.

"Dont forget the research. And the permission slip. This subject's worth a lot." He smiles once more and I stand there feeling like a child. 

"Uhm, yea." It was all I could say.

He walks out and waves a little.

"Breathe Mia. Br- breathe." I whisper to myself as I contain my happiness.

I went home that day not knowing what to feel. I was happy. I knew that.

I finally had the chance to put on a smile. One that fitted me. One that I knew was genuine. Buton the other side of myself, jitters were overflowing. I was nervous. The fact that I was going to spend this emersionwith Miguel made me feel so belittled.

Mom and I talked overthe emersion over dinner. She signed my permission letter and was even more excited than I was. I feel like she's hiding something from me again. Honestly, I just dont care at this point..

I closed the night after updating my social networking sites. A few tweets about my day, and a few updates on my facebook. I slumped into my bed at exactly 12 am, with Statue by Lil Eddie on repeat.

I went to sleep knowing that somehow, my smile was true today. I fell asleep knowing that tomorrow would be a new day. New hope. And I know it sounds dramatic, but what can you get from a 16-year old hopeless romantic right? I smiled at the song I was listening to and slowly drifted to sleep...