Dear Charlie

When All Else Fails, GIVE UP.

January 21st.

Dear Charlie,

Everyone knows I'm gay now. Johnathan hates me because of it, and that hurts me... A lot. But my mom and dad are okay with it. Except for my sister.

"I expected more from you, Allen." She said to me in disapproval.

I attempted to jump off our school building yesterday. Everyone tried to stop me, but they couldn't. I was a few inches away from salvation, but one of the students grabbed me.

He had blue eyes, blonde hair and pale skin. He looked scrawny but cute. His name was.. 'Lucas', I think.

Well mom grounded me for it and dad lectured me about suicide. He reminded me that whether I was gay or not was definitely no valid reason for me to go jump off high places.

I was about to protest but mom came in with hot chocolate.

Don't blame me about my attempt! That asshole Ethan just destroyed my textbooks. I am practically taller than that douche bag.

Ugh.. I wish I could just transfer away from here.

Oh and, I'll tell you why I wanted to die today. I swear, it's a valid reason.

You remember Cody right? He and I aren't together anymore. I saw him and my girl best friend making out. I cried and punched him. I slapped Mia as well. She was uttering sorries and Cody begged for forgiveness.

I felt like shit Charlie.

They both lied to me.

Never in my life have I ever felt so alone.

So I ran up to the school's roof, threw away my jacket and bag and edged to my end. But like I said, some kid called 'Lucas', stopped me.

When will I find someone I can love Charlie? Do you think there's someone out there for me?

I hope there is one.

I'll tell you more about my life later.

Love,

Allen