The boy meet in the library

Chapter 1: Praying for a miracle

They say you can manifest anything you truly desirer , but first it has to be a single thought than vision than it becomes real in the physical realm, who would've thought that my prayer would've envision you. I was so heart broken from my past relationship. I didn't think love was possible for me. Looking back at it I was 18 year old . It's laughable now , because my high school sweetheart couldn't compare to my college love. If you would have told me I would been this deep in love with you I wouldn't even believe because I was so stuck on the other guy. I couldn't see no one replacing him . I would spend hours in my room playing Something in my heart by michel'le screaming and sing my lungs out to her song over and over until the whole house would sing with me. My family.... They knew I was hurting and that I was in so much pain over Geno and they prayed that the puppy loved I had for him would go away Eventually, but you have to know the connection me and Geno had was more than just puppy love. I was so magically in love with him since I met him high school . Hmm as I'm starting to think about it I guess I got a thing for the guy that my eyes fall in love with. Just kidding , i guess when you know , You know.
I could've went to HBCU out of all the places I chose Community college to spend time with Geno since he went to the same college. Before you think anything .It's not like he made me do it . It was my decision because I really wanted to spend my time with him. Now I'm a believer that love can make you do some crazy things. I don't know what I was thinking , but it would never led me to meet you. Anyways Being heart broken about Geno leaving me. I would beg him to take me back . I would've had to agree that we could be in a open relationship and he could see other people and by other people he wanted to talk to my ex friend Lily at the time she was my best friend that was into that spiritual third eye stuff. He digg that about her. Made me feel insecure about myself. What makes it worst they were in the same class room and at the end of class I would go and pick Lily up . And I know this seems weird , but I kid you not the girl would draw her vision on the board for her class to see and I know this isn't fugees killing me softly his song ,but the gal was drawing her thoughts , her vision, my life on that board!! I kid you not . I never said anything about it to this day I just was amaze how the universe can find people to speak too so that they can speak to them to get through to you. I hope that makes since , but it's true I swear my life it's true .
Anyways I disagreed and he said okay well good luck on being single and I was shocked. I begged and pleaded until one day after a game I was with my friend Kay . We was watching a basketball game . I stayed to watch the basketball games hoping to see Geno come out the gym because after classes that's what he would love to do was work out to get himself in shape to better himself. Kay knew some days I was at that game for all the wrong reason to get Geno to notice me , but I didn't care . I wanted my guy back. After Geno worked out I told Kay the game was getting lame and I had to catch up on some homework i will see her later .
An she knew I was lying , but she said okay . She offered to come , but I insist I wanted to study alone . I knew The last bus that took you from school to downtown ran around 6:30ish and I knew Geno would take that bus after working out . So as he was in the locking room getting ready to leave . I was also in the locking room getting myself together and getting out of my gym clothes to look updated for him. As I close the door of the locker room perfect timing I see Geno getting his College ID card from the locker manger so that he could catch the 6:30ish bus .
I ran behind him and caught up to him to ask him if I could tag along . He said sure , but once he gets off the bus we will part ways. I was speechless as walking down the hallway trying to catch up with him to realize he didn't care anymore. I ask him why does he hate me so much it's not like I cheated on him or slept with his best friend. I didn't say that , but I was feeling and thinking it . He told me he doesn't ...It's just that he doesn't want to be with me . I'm just not the girl he pictures being with. An that right there broke my heart it's the way he said it as I started to cry trying to hold on to him .Told me to let him go as he start to walk away . I cried and and said .....but I love you .... Why ... give me a reason why you don't love me anymore. I swear to you felt like a movie . As I cried and he walked away my friend Kay and her friends at the time rush to me . You could tell they felt bad , but they just shook there head and said this in the most thoughtful way "you have to let him go if he is going to keep hurting you" than she told me pick myself up . She thought I was going to study and I lie to her told her I was , but I ran into him . She knew I was lying and told she and her friends was going back to dorm room to study because the basketball game was over . I told her no I'm fine I will just go in the library really study this time . Lying again!!!!!! I felt so fucking stupid !!!! He played me . Do me favor stop reading this go to YouTube and look up Selena Gomez - the heart wants what it wants video . The actual video and listen to the audio and understand she took my breath away because at that moment that was how I was feeling. I broken , I was confused, I was in pain and in love and shamed with how he walk away so easily.
I stop crying for a while. To show them I had my shit together and that I was okay for them to walk away, but after they left out them double doors . Baby best believe me when I say fell back to the ground and cried. No one was in that part of the school at that time so I could do that, but I know the camera man who was watching the school probably was saying "keep your head up". I don't know if that's what they really thought I just hope that's what they really thought. I was done with school spring break was threes from now and I was ready to give up on life. I was already failing classes because my break up . Every project I did was about it . Shockingly I got a A , but I know what your thinking you just said you failing.. Yeah In classes by not turning the work in, but when it came to the projects I would pass with flying colors.
Anyways talking about my college accomplishments back to me being on the floor and crying. I decided to text my mom and tell her to pick me up Also letting her know that I had missed the 6:30ish and I didn't have any money to take the real city bus to take me downtown and she told me. It's okay and I was lucky because she was getting out of work early and she would pick me up after.That was fine with me because I really did need to do a project about depression in one last project that I never did finish and left my classmates to choose their own fate because I thought it would be a good idea to do a project on depression while being depressed that Geno left me.this isn't a book this is wattspad so smh at myself .
Anyways!!!!!! I'm still crying nothing has changed I picked myself and I just secured a ride home to go home , but my mother didn't get off until another half hour or so . So I got up dust myself and walk into the library. Now if you ever been to MCC you know before you get into the Library it like a room in the middle that separate
The library from the college itself. I had on make up that day so I stopped and fixed myself. And after I fix myself I realize what Kay said to me and that's when I got my knees and I prayed to God and told him the type of man I wanted and that I no longer wanted to cry over Geno anymore .
I picked myself up and felt good about praying and I felt like a angel was beside me telling me walk through them library doors and that I was about to meet the man of my dreams. I kid you not Usually go upstairs where it's like library got it's own little rooms you can go into and as I walked in and said hello to the Liberians. I walked to the elevator and something told me don't go upstairs. There was a room a cross from the elevator that had computers in it. Something told me to go in there. Now I usually never go in there , but I said why not since my mother will becoming soon. I didn't want her to be waiting outside so going upstairs would be pointless. An to be honest I'm happy I didn't ...
So as I walked into the room there is no one but this boy on this computer who looks up at me as I walk in. An we just stare at each other . For a moment in time I wanted to say is this room taken because even if it was 12 computers in that room and we was literally, literally the only two people other than the Liberian in that library . I felt like I was interrupting his studies. We both nodded at each and smiled as I took my book bag from my shoulders to place it down on the floor. As I sat something whispered in my ear and said that's him . And I said who and I turn back and looked at him and looked at me and smiled and than I looked away. And I just had this rush of a warm feeling that's him. Ring ring ring you found your soulmate. And I said yeah whatever and I kid you not .
I was in that room for 5 mins minding my business and the lights went off . I know how when there is no moment the lights will go off , but this was different something whispered in my ear again talk to him. So we both looked back at each other laughed and he moved his hands back and forth to turn lights on and they did and we turn back around . I bet he went back to doing his homework. Me I was like maybe that was just a coincidence , but less than a min something again said talk to him and the lights when off again . Me trying not to make it weird I get up and say theses lights right . He smiles and says yeah. Than they turn back on so I sit down . I thought to myself We went about two lights off and I really haven't introduced myself . So once I sit down I turn around say my name is Kadeijah and he says Kadeijah and smiles with a passion. His accent took my breath away and at that time I couldn't understand him when he said his name , but he said Mwalizi. An just to be clear he did speak English he just had thick accent.
I nodded and said nice to meet you and he said same. I told myself in my head okay I did it are you happy and I guess the spirits didn't think so because when I say the lights started to flash on and off like we just won ping-pong on that old Microsoft computer . That's how bad it was. An if you think I'm lying remember it's two sides to this story and he will confirm that it is true . We like to laugh about how the lights where the reasons we talked. So this time he got up and said theses lights were not acting like this before You came in that's crazy. And I said laughing maybe it wants us to talk. That's when the lights turned back on. He sat back down and he stopped working just to talk to me and he said well let's talk then. And I started with okay Let me get your Snapchat. So we exchanged Snapchat's this was on December 14, 2017. I got that off of Snapchat by the way .
And before I could go into more detail about who I was my mom had texted me and said that she's outside and that I need to be making my way to the parking lot because she's about to pull up. So I told him the lights got what they wanted and he smiled and said nice to meet you Kadeijah in his accent and I said you too . And than see you around. An I said I hope as I walk out the library. I felt something I hadn't felt in a while . I felt butterflies.... As I walked out the mcc doors I looked up to the sky and looked at the moon and the stars and said thank you. Feeling like something in the universe change for me and it did , but at that time it was just a thought. Nothing but a thought , but once I left that library he didn't feel that way he said yeah that's going to be girlfriend. I kid you not!!!!! I will go on to chapter two , but I need to know if anyone cares to read and listen to me. It gets good 😭😭 that Shea butter type love good . Now we almost 5 years in and 🤐 so much has happened it only feels like three.. I will make it worth your while. 💕 Thank you 🙏🏿 Kayla Bailey for singing that beautiful song it made me just want to believe we were meant to be . I hope we get it right 😪 because I can't wait another life time I need to marry this man .