The boy meet in the library

Chapter 3 : No one

I wish you knew how much you meant to me . I love you today as much or even more than I loved you from our first date. You still eat my soul way when you look at me with them brown hazel eyes of your . Your smile could make up for lost times we missed when we fight. It wasn't all always like that. We wasn't always like this . Rewinding back in time shows me the greatest treasure we shared was each other
I remember like it was yesterday. After losing my mind and taking 9 months away from the outside world we ended up talking again . You will never understand how your love changed my life forever . It help me realize love is possible with a little bit of care. We didn't talk in awhile. Because I just had got out mental health hospital and I had shaved my hair from mental break down from everything that happened between Geno, Lily and the money. You didn't know what was going on . I wanted it to stay that way. I wanted to start over fresh . I honestly forgot about you after I left college and never went back , but you didn't forget about me . Believe it or not you was first person to make a move on me . You text me with a "Hey, you forgotten about me."
And hearing from you made me smile . I didn't know what to think since I was have crazy barely could speak a word , but texting you help me feel safe . I didn't tell you at the time what happened to me because I didn't want to scare you away. So with the few brain cells I had left of me . I use it to talk to you and the way we talked it seemed like we never stopped talking . After a month I told how Geno broke my heart and I couldn't love again and you told me . He is going to regret hurting me because I'm one of a kind girl , you also said that your going to show me that I can always count on you. And you won't leave my side no matter how hard things got . And I believe in them words . And I can say being in the present it got rocky . Even if things are not the same . You still are here . I just hope I can make you wanna stay.
Anyways now it's Dec 31, 2018 and we been on the phone talking for hours about music and everything we wanted to know about each other . You showed me your local music and told me that one day you would take me to Victoria Falls. You told me you I don't know it yet , but you was going to marry me . I never really seen the visions you had for us at that time because love wasn't something I wanted , but you made your job for me to believe in again. An I appreciate you for that, but you made me vulnerable in ways I won't have let anyone get near like I let you get near me .
I still remember the first song you played to me No one - Marc Anthony this is the song you told me . Whenever we are part , when ever I feel in doubt when I feel alone . Whenever I feel like our love about be sucked into a black hole . Play that song right there and know that I love you. And know that this how you made me felt when I first met you this will always be our first song because this is my mood forever .
It's hurts , it hurts so bad. I really miss you . I know right now your going through something tough and I just want you know . To play no one by Marc as well so you know I love you. Your my best friend. I know we fight. I know I can be annoying, but it's only because I love you. Since and when you made me fall in love again. All I ever did in life and I swear you can ask God when it's your time. All I ever wanted to do was to protect and love you and keep you close to me because just like me you was and still are priceless. Kadeijah and Mutambo we are unstoppable. I just wish I could figure out where we went wrong....
Some say we create a image in our heads about the person we love to fool ourselves from staying with them, but I need them to know everyone has their own choice and mines will forever be you. We been through a lot to know this ain't nothing I make up to hold on to you this was blood sweat and tears we put into each other.
January 7, 2019 we went on our first day. After almost a year of talking about how we was going to see each other we finally made it official. Today , well that day was the day things changed for the both of us wouldn't you agree. It was cold that night and you told me how you really hurt yourself in soccer ball game and you just got out of surgery not too long ago, but you told me you won't miss our first day for anything in the world. Surprisingly all this time was talking and I was near you the whole time. I worked across the street from where you lived. I never knew until the day of our first date. When I picked you up.
I didn't know where to park . So you told me park on the side . I told you I was outside and you came out of Jen house's limping with your crutches. I felt bad because you had to walk through the snow so I opened the door for you. I was nervous because it was first day in a long time . Shoot it was my first time being out the house since I lost my mind . Anyways so this is where the magic starts. You get in the car smelling amazing as always in your soccer outfit. You love you some soccer. Smiling at me with you dimples and white teeth chewing on extra gum.
We both our blushing at each other as we say hi. Than I ask you what you wanted to do and you told me let's go to the movies , but it a bit to late for that so we figure we would go to staryy nights , but before we went . You had other plans you wanted to solve by saying "special treat" I look at you confused and said special treat . You said yeah , because you never been with anybody before and you wanted your first time for some reason to be with me . So we drove to near by park .. hold on I gotta turn on the air conditioning it just got in hot in here. No I can't go into details because he probably would be upset lol and tell me to take the story down. So I'm say stop reading and go play Shea butter baby - Ari . Think about some Shea butter on a dark skin African male with a six pack v shaped body .omg I started to scream having flash blacks lol a stranger walking by watching me omg how embarrassing, but i don't care that thang makes me proud 🥲 . Mannnn that thang . What she said IT WAS LIKE IT WAS TALKING TO ME !!!!
It was beautiful, it was all I ever thought it could be . I know your like on the first night but that right there told it all for me and him . It was deep . After the deed was done . Geno who? I was forever hooked. Our date went amazing . BRB