Hey, sorry for not writing very much and often, as you might now, writing is like my second favourite hobby.
Why exactly am I not writing as much as before?
The first things that are stopping me from writing is lack of inspiration and motivation. I don't have many ideas of stories and plots that I could use to write a nice fic. I was never a motivated person, I have low self esteem which doesn't let me do many things in my life, not just writing fics and stories. I try my best to make everything perfect, because the fear of being judged is hunting me everyday, even tho I know it will happen, it's just the way I am.
The second thing, is that this year are my final exams and I'm trying my best to learn for them, pass them and go exactly where I always wished to go. I sound like a nerd, but they are very important, even if many people don't think so, they are very important, they depend on my future and if I can't pass them, well I gotta repeat the year or use all my precious summer to pass them... And I don't want to risk that...
Sometimes I might have some free time to write, draw, play games etc... But at the moment I can't do more than doodle some stuff in school breaks.
I will continue this book, just 'cause I'm busy this year doesn't mean I'll leave this book behind, I love soulworker as a game and this book, I can't just leave it like that, so don't worry, I'm still here.
One last thing, I'm not feeling well this days, and not that I'm sick or anything. I just feel sad and all of that, most of this comes from the fact that my class makes me feel terrible, I feel like I'm a tool to them, only good at helping them and that's it, after that I'm treated like a garbage can and I can't stand living like this, even if it's the last year with them, I just don't like to feel rejected and alone. I never find a group to talk with and stuff, everyone has their own group and I'm always left behind. I'm not good at talking with people, but I enjoy company. Ik I shouldn't shove this stuff here, but I can't keep them inside me anymore....
I'm sorry for not writing in a while, one day I'll write a big oneshot and do official art for my book...
And again sorry for keeping you here thanks for reading as always! It sounds like nothing, but it means a lot to me that someone reads what I write💫✨❤️
I love ya'll, we'll see ourselves back someday, I also might post little stuff on my Twitter if you're interested! ^^
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Soulworker Oneshots(mostly Haruwin) (TEMPORARLY DISCONTINUED)
FanfictionHello I decided to write in this story till I find an ending for my old one and even after I find an ending!^^ (I already found an ending to my book, check it out! :D ). Few notes: I'm not a nsfw writer, so I won't write anything like that, I'm sor...
