"make it stop, make it stop, make it stop!!" i screamed at myself, while the rushing water filled up the sink. "stop, shut up, shut up, shut the hell up!!" the water soon spilled over the edge hitting the floor with that way too familiar splattering noise. way. too. familiar. i threw my head against the ground, trying to get the images out of my head. the water wet my forehead and clothes but though i was still physically there.. i wasn't. "i-i'm sorry! m-mom! d-dad!" i banged my head against the tile. i could feel the blood starting to pour. the red liquid mixed with the clear made for a pretty pink. the pink of stolen memories and lost dreams. the pink of strawberry sundae's and chewing bubble gum. the pink of my mom's heels. god did she love those fucking heels. if only those heels didn't turn red in the end. if only those shoes weren't the last ones she ever wore again.
twice ran in the room and instantly landed by my side. "toga! toga snap out of it! you're okay! i'm here, it's not real!" he said as he tried to calm down my violent shaking. fuck. fuck, fuck, fuck! "m-make it stop twice! make me stop!" i screamed and covered my ears. "shut up! shut up, shut up, shut up!" why won't the screaming stop!? if it's not real why can i hear them? if it's not real why can i hear them begging for mercy?! "i'm sorry!" i said before twice pulled me into his lap. "toga! f-fuck..." twice quickly got up and grabbed my phone. he ran over and turned off the faucet before unlocking my phone and playing an voicemail. it was ochako's voice. it was her asking where i was and if i was okay. that soft, smooth and delicate voice. i combed my hair back and took in sharp inhales, trying to fix my breathing.
i eventually caught my breath and flipped over to lay my back on the soaking wet tile floor. twice sat next to me, his dark blue jeans quickly turned a black color as we both sat in the mildly flooded bathroom. "really bad episode, huh?" he said scooting over to the cabinet and pulling out a bandaid for me to place on my forehead. i took the bandaid and peeled off the wrapper, revealing the cute hello kitty bandage. "yeah..." i sighed. it's
been months since i had those flashbacks. well at least those flashbacks. i...i thought i was finally over it. but every time it just comes
back to haunt me. like a leech...or a bee. bee's are useful and there for a reason, but it hurts so fucking bad when they sting you. but unlike bees these flashbacks won't fucking die. they keep coming back, and back, constantly stinging me. even when i offer them flowers.
i took twices hand and got off the wet tile. "go change, i'll clean this up." "thanks, jin." i shot him a sorrowful smile and walked over to my room. i swiftly closed the door and locked it, taking off my disgustingly wet clothes. god i hated wet clothes. i looked over at my clock that glowed the pink time. it was now 8:23 am. shit. i missed a whole period. i quickly jumped into some dry, semi-clean clothes and threw on my shoes. i stood there for a second...at least i missed geometry. i quickly grabbed my bag and slipped my pocketknife into the pocket i made under my skirt. i unlocked my door and sprinted out of my room to the living room. "bye jin! see you after school!" i said quickly unlocking the door and running out, making sure to lock it back again before sprinting to the sidewalk.
i walked into school and groaned. i hated this place. everything...everything was way too...familiar. i hated things that felt familiar. walking the past lockers felt weird. i looked over and saw that locker 222 was open. i looked away. if i don't look i-it won't happen again. just don't think about it toga and you'll be fine. fine...fine...
"fine!? come on himiko you should be more excited about going to UA. i went here you know~" my mom exclaimed, tucking a piece of my blonde hair behind my ear. it was the same color as her's. "yes, mom. i know. i get it." i groaned and rolled my eyes. i'm only willingly going here because of my boyfriend. "and here's my old locker, 222" "hey, that's my locker!" deku said, walking up with a smile that could single handedly light up christmas day all over the world. i quickly pecked his cheek and interlocked our fingers. "hey...doesn't 222 mean we're in the right place at the right time?" he said gazing into my eyes. "yeah, i guess that's true for us huh?" "yeah~ it's like the gods brought us together."
i walked over to the locker and shut it with a slam as tears pricked my eyes. "222 my ass." i
mumbled to myself trying to keep my composer. i shook my head and looked down at my feet. "right place? right time? bullshit!" i said to myself. "gods, universe...prove to me that this 222 shit isn't bullshit. and that all this shit isn't just a fucking scam!" i whispered to myself. never again will i believe in angel numb- "hey toga!" ochako said running up to me and wrapping her arms around my neck. "o-ochako? aren't you supposed to be in class?" she pulled away and lifted the blue pass that dangled around her neck labeled "aizawa bathroom pass room number 888" i nodded, ignoring the angel number on the pass. "what happened to you?" she said looking at the bandaid that was on my forehead, which was surrounded by a huge red bruise. "uhh nothing." i smiled. she smiled back the prettiest smile i've ever seen and glanced at the lockers. she gasped for a second and grabbed my hand. "look! it's 222! do you know what that means?" i looked at her in slight shock. no fucking way. "it means we're in the right place at the right time. together~" no. no, no, no, no. this is like last time. t-this can't be like last time. i won't let it be-. i could feel her squeeze my hand. i snapped back and quickly shot her a smile. "together" i said before turning away my gaze.
i sat in the nurses office. of course i had to hurt my ankle during volleyball. ochako walked in with some crutches the nurse ordered her to get. "i could walk you home you know." she said as we exited the school. "no i can go by myself." it's not safe for her to walk me home. i wouldn't let anything happen to her. ever. "no,
seriously it's dangerous for you to walk alone!" i eyed her and laughed. "so..,what are you gonna do to stop it?" i could see her turn red as she got defensive and tried to argue her side while i just laughed. "well at least come back to my place unless your parents-" "it's fine i can go by myself." "himiko toga. you have two options. come home with me, or i walk you home." "damn, you just want me in your bed so~ bad don't you?" ochako turned an even darker red, matching the color of the stop sign ahead of us. "n-no it's not that! i'm just worried for your safety!" she said dramatically swinging her arms. i raised an eyebrow and looked her up and down before giggling again. "yeah sure. 'safety'" i said with air-quotes while she glared at me. "well princess, i think i'll be sleeping at your house tonight."
"are you sure your parents are okay with this?" i asked leaning back on her pillows. "yeah of course, especially since you're injured." she said putting a pillow under my
ankle and adding a cool pack of ice on top. i
missed this. i missed the feeling of being taken cared of instead of taking care of myself. but let me not get lost in my thoughts, we all know what happens then. "so what are you? my roleplay nurse?" i smirked while ochako turned that bright red i loved. the red she always turned when i flirted with her. a type of red that reminded me of blood, or cherries. two of my favorite things. "t-toga shut up and let me take care of you." "whatever you say nurse-chako~" i said shooting her a wink before she glared at me again.
it was an hour later, and i was still in her bed. she sat down next to me while we watched 'my little pony', her favorite cartoon. "hey" i said looking at her and turning my body to lay on my side. "be careful with your ankle!" she reprimanded me, but i could hear the care in her voice as her eyes flickered back to my eyes like christmas lights. "thank you, for this 'chako" i said, a tender smile forming on my lips as a sit up to look at her soft face easier. "it's fine, toga. i told you, you don't have to thank me." i nodded softly and stared into her big brown orbs. everything felt okay. it's like, the world slowed down, and everyone and everything just...disappeared. it was only her and me. i licked my lips and my eyes trailed down to her perfect pink ones, like a perfectly ripe peach. it was almost like gravity was pulling us closer, as my eyes kept flickering between my favorite features on her i could see that she was nervous, but i saw her leaning towards me too as some strands of her tucked brown hair fell forward. soon enough we were inches away from eachother, i could feel her soft, slow breath on my lips. as she closed her eyes, i closed mine too, taking one last breathe before i attempted to fill the gap between us.
