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Shot 5

 

Toji's pov:

"Hey (M/n)?" I ask my boyfriend of almost 6 years as he spaces out, as he finally snaps out of his daze "huh?" He says, finally paying attention "you've been spacing out" I say "oh..sorry" he replied bashfully rubbing the back of his head, I decided to ignore it and continue shopping.

"(M/n) what do you think abou-" I cut myself off as I realize he wasn't paying attention.. but he seems to be looking at something else? I follow his gaze and he's looking at a....woman? I snap my gaze back at him and my eyes widen as I see him.. he's smiling? I look back at the woman he was looking at.... 'is he....checking them out? But why? Is he... tired of me?....' I felt tears brimming in my eyes at the mere thought, my throat going hoarse, as I looked down at our hands that are intertwined 'no.. there's no way, we've been together for so long.. we've-' my train of thought was cut off by (M/n) tightening his grip on my hand. I look up to meet his mesmerizing (e/c) hues looking at me with concern "babe? Hey you alright?" He asks lovingly making me conflicted 'was he not looking at the woman? No..what else could he be looking at? that woman was the only one at that aisle.' I thought, my throat felt like it was burning..

  "Im fine..can we go home now?" I mumbled but it looked like he heard me as he hesitantly nodded his head "ok then.." he said probably deciding to not pry,

  "Hey you sure you're alright??" (M/n) asks as we both entered our shared apartment "yea..." I respond quietly choosing not to look at him "alright then..just remember Im always here you" he said placing a kiss on my forehead.

(ᴛɪᴍᴇsᴋɪᴘ)Author pov:

  "I'll be going now babe see you later" the (h/c) man in a suit said kissing his lover on the cheek, toji just stared at him forcing a smile which (M/n) seemed to notice but choose to ignore it "bye, see you.." toji mumbled playing with the hem of his sweater. (M/n) opened the front door of the apartment, glancing back at his lover, toji and finally leaving. Leaving toji with his thoughts.

'Is he....going out with that woman? I thought he didn't have work today? Is he meeting someone?!' toji franticly thought, breathing heavily as he tried to calm himself down. "I'll just take a shower" toji declares walking to their shared bathroom.

As the ebony haired male sat in the bathtub,   he looked at his body, thoughts popping up in his head 'maybe he is tired of me..I mean look at me..compared to that woman...Im nothing' he thought tears brimming in his emerald eyes as he took a fistful of his hair and frustratingly tugged it, as toji began to sob, the voices in his head kept on talking about how he isn't enough, and that you have someone else.

Toji sniffled, his eyes now red from his sobbing, as his throat was burning, as he finally gets up from the tub 'i-ill talk to him about it' he thought but to be honest, toji was scared what if he actually had someone else, what if he leaves him?! What if, what if?! '"tch. Guess you finally figured it out..im tired of you toji, i cant with you anymore. im breaking up with you"' (M/n)'s voice echoed in his head, no.. he cant, what if he leaves him?!, toji cant live without him?!,

Toji sat on the sofa hugging a pillow tightly on his arms as he contemplated whether he should talk to you or not, "ma-maybe I'll talk to him some other time" he thought but the only thing he was doing was stalling, he was going to prepare himself for the worst so that if he does talk to you about it and it doesn't turn out good he'll be able to handle it...but he doubts that.

(Timeskip)

  "Bye babe I'll go now!" (M/n) said with a smile on his face, he said he was going to go see a coworker to discuss a new project, toji forced a smile on his face waving his lover off which the other male happily waved back as toji stares at his lovers fading figure 'that's the second time this week' he thought closing the front door and sliding his whole body down to the floor hugging his knees 'i can't do this anymore..' he thought biting his lower lip enough to draw blood as he tries to stop himself from crying again, 'ill talk to him today when he gets home' toji declares as thoughts of the outcome flood his head, toji chocked back a sob.