it's 11:45 pm and i'm in love.
in love with someone with beautiful bronzed wrapping
whose voice is as velvety soft as the serpentine bow on top
but i wonder if i'm only in love with an idea
with just the glittery, eye-catching packaging
And the just silky, shimmering bow
humans do love their pretty things
it's 11:45 pm and i'm lying in bed
starshine streaming in through the slits of my window sills
slices of silver grey and gold streaked across my bed sheets
dust particles flickering like glowing embers
i imagine them to be the fairies i wished to be
When i was seven years old
it's 11:45 pm and i'm drifting off into a handpicked memory
a sophomore golden boy, arm slung around a russet haired girl
an embrace that reeks of adolescent awkwardness
but strangely captivating all the same
and i won't deny it
won't deny it
won't deny it
(i... wish for it)
you fucker
that protection that possession
that touch that hair-touch that care
that we're in our own universe and i don't give a damn what others think of us hell i don't know what this is but i like it and i like you and i think you like me too so let me sit here and enjoy the sun with you
i seek it so longingly my skin simmers and ignites at the thought
the adoration
the ADORATION
i don't know if you can call it love
but it feels fucking close to it
it's 11:45pm and i'm a fucking supernova
steaming then simmering then just fucking COMBUSTING
doesn't the simmering come first? then the steam? oh what the fuck, we're going to die anyway
just fucking
E XPL ODIN G
i'm sorry.
i've never been an eloquent person.
i want to whisper into someone's ear
"you're an angel"
mean it with every trembling fibre in my body
caress their face fold them into my arms be IN LOVE with LOVE give LOVE receive LOVE mold them to my selfish bloody beating heart until they fuse to my ever-so fading life energy and THEN i'll be whole again or something
or something
or something
or something
but alas, it's just 11:46 pm, and i'm just fucking lonely.
a/n: welcome to my new book! introducing pieces straight from the heart, raw and unkempt and unedited
