余生， 请多指教 - Please Guide Me for the Rest of My Life (English Translation)

Chapter 9: Mrs. Gu

A lover's embrace is the place where the soul dwells in peace.

Xiao Cao and I sat across from each other in silence. She was revising her report. My mind was wandering as I held in my hand the thesis that I was soon to defend...

Lu Renjia had come back to school during the weekend for free food. He was leisurely holding a book on abnormal psychology — it had nothing to do with his major — and plopped down next to Xiao Cao. He then greeted his girlfriend with his eyes as if there was no one else around. Lu Renyi sleepily flipped through a bound journal (he had been dragged here by Lu Renjia to help Xiao Cao with her report).

My gaze flitted from the bookshelf to the window, then to the drafts that sat between me and Xiao Cao. I was feeling so restless that surprisingly even the thick-skulled Lu Renyi noticed it.

"Eh, which wind-like man has got you so down?"

I fear that anyone who hung out with Lu Renjia for a long time would soon become like him...

I periodically glanced at my dark phone screen, anxiously waiting for something. During these five months, I endured multiple bouts of melancholy. Why did we have to get engaged the night before he had to leave? My precious time got wasted on toasting and drinking. Is there no one who understands that two people who are separated need to have their own time to interact and tell each other affectionate words?! The next day, I crawled out of bed feeling heavy-headed. Gu Wei had already left. How could I endure that!!! (Sansan: You yourself poured the glass of wine that made you drunk, you have only yourself to blame)

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When Gu Wei came back, I didn't get to pick him up at the airport. The hospital picked him up for a meeting to exchange reports...don't you guys have any humanity?!

"Ah-Xiao, you can go home first," Xiao Cao murmured weakly, "really, I'm starting to feel guilty..."

I touched my face. Women in a bad mood are truly the scariest...

"I'm fine." In fact, I would be more anxious waiting in the apartment alone with nothing to do...

The sky outside gradually darkened as the minutes ticked by. At last, my cellphone wallpaper lit up with a picture of Gu Wei. Lu Renjia was the first person to jump up from his seat.

"Scatter, disperse, disperse! Are you guys trying to get the Nobel Prize or something? I'm starving. Let's go eat."

The three of them made a clean sweep of the materials on the table and marched off...

I tried to slow my footsteps as much as I could as I walked towards the school's gate, and realized that aside from the sound of my heartbeat, I couldn't hear anything else. I don't know if you've ever had this kind of feeling before. You're basically racking your brain to think about problems only to find out that there was never even a problem in your brain, let alone an answer.

I waited until Gu Wei parked his car in front of me. I rigidly opened the door, sat down, took a deep breath, turned my head — then turned it back — is the food in Germany better? Why did I feel like this man had become even more handsome...

Gu Wei bent forward to help me put on my seatbelt and asked, "Do you not recognize me?"

I raised my hand to block his face. "You...let me recover..."

I felt surreal. I looked around; the car, with all its physical constraints, really wasn't suitable for any extreme acts. I fixed my gaze forward and pretended to be calm. "What are the plans for tonight?"