lovin u

Chapter 1 The Horrible Break Up

As I am walking in the place to see my boyfriend, something didn't seem right. Was I over dressed? Was there something on my face? Is my hair messed up. People kept looking at me. It freaked me out but I ignored it as I walked to my boyfirend. He was talking to some girl. I thought she was a friend but she turned out to be more than that and I know because when he saw me the thing he said
"Mary? What are you doing here?"
I was surprised I thought he would love to see me but he wasn't happy at all. I should've known if I was smart I would've known. He pulled me away from the woman and everyone else. Before he told me the truth I just thought it was an important conversation. Every time he's in the middle of one I for some reason always come to him and start talking to him.That's when he asked me again. This time with more anger than I thought.
"I just thought you'd be happy to see me." I said trying to get him to relax.
"Well, this is important. You need to go home."
"So I'm not important?"
It needed to be asked.
"That's not what I meant. How did yoiu know where I was? I don't remember telling you to come here tonight."
"I know. Alley told me. I was suppose to surprise you. Did I interrupt something important? Is that your boss?"
"No she's not my boss.
"Is she like a friend or something."
"No."
"Co worker"
"No."
"Did you come here with her?"
I don't know why I asked the question because I already new the answer, but I didn't know it was that bad. Why would he hurt me like that? He said he loved me. He said I was the only one. I actually believed him. The one man I trusted after Abi's father left us turns out to be a douche.
"She's my wife." He said it without feeling sorry.
"But what about us?"
"What about us?" I think he was asking
"How could you hurt me and not feel bad about it. That really hurts. I thought I meant something to you. But you're just like the rest of the men in the world. Stupid."
I left him standing there alone. He ran after me which only made me run faster. He runs track of course he caught me.
"I can explain this," he said.
" You've explained enough. I don't want to hear it. You cheated on me. I hate you. Don't ever talk to me or Abi again. We don't need you anymore."
"Babe, come on. You know that's not true. You love me like I love you. I didn't even cheat on you I cheated on her. I'm sorry I hurt you. I was going to tell you about her. You just beat me to it."
I was crying but I didn't feel the tears. My heart felt like it was going to burst. It hurts. It keeps happening. Why does this happen to me? This is everytime. Why do god hate me?
"Can you leave me alone."
He grabbed my face and pulled me close.
"Get off!"
"Babe why are you acting this way I thought you loved me."
"I just found out my boyfriend is married."
"We have kids together. I cant just leave her. I'm sorry. We can just forget about this and talk about it tomorrow."
"No! I will be gone by tomorrow. I am not going to keep going through this every time I try to find a man. I want real love."
"And l can give you that. Please. Iwill do anything. Just give me another chance."
"No."
I tried to walk away but he grabbed me and started kissing me. He picked me up and spent me around like in the movies. I hope he know this does not help at all. He started to rub my hair, but I made him move his hands because it took me 30 minutes to do it and he wasn't going to mess it up.
"STOP! I don't have time for any of your bullshit."
this pissed him off for some reason, but he moved away from me.
"I will leave her.come on. You know I love you."
"Then why didn't you leave her when you found out you loved me. Instead you just hurt my feelings. I picked this out of my carrer, and I'm noticing I might have picked the wrong thing."
"But you didn't and you know that. That's why you aren't leaving."
"I am leaving you."
"And where are you planning on going?"he knew what he was doing. He knew I had nowhere to go. I didn't even have money. I'm a housewife. Everything I own is his. How stupid am I?
"I'll go with my mom." That's a lie. My mom died when I was three.
"Didn't you come way from Maine? How do you expect to get back there from here? You're not using my money."
"I will find a way. Like I found my way here."
"Well, have a nice trip back to he house. See you when I get there."
"I hate you."
"i love you too."
I'm not going home.So don't expect me to be there because I won't."
"it's not like you have somewhere to go. Youdon't even know how how bad these streets can be. You'll be running back tomorrow. Just watch."
As I was walking to the car he grabbed me and pulled me back.
"you're not really doing this.Come on. We have a family."
"Abi is not yours and you know that as well as I know that."
"What do you thinnk she is going to say about this?"Again he was right. Abi is almost Seven. She's never known anyone else as her real father.What would she do if we broke up? Then at that never see him again.
"Fine. I will just have to stay for a few months until I can get money to move. Then I will have no choice but to tell her."
"I would like that. Alot." Of course you would you fuckin bitch.
"I guess I'll be going home now. Bye."
* * * * *
When I got home Abi was still woke and I think I was a little drunk. If you are asking ,no I didn't come straight home. Oh great Tony is here. His wife is to. Just because we broke up that doesn't mean he can just bring a girl in the house. I'm not quite over you yet. I went up to the guest room.That is where I will be sleeping now. I already hate this. I've been crying every since. Now that he has brought the girl who I left him for in the house I just can't hold it in. The tears are just pouring down. They won't stop. How can a man with dreamy eyes hurt a girl like me. I don't make him mad as much. I cook, clean, take care of Abi, and I make sure he is happy. I mean what more do a guy want.
Tony just walked in my room and told me his wife just left. Do he really think I care?
"You should comesleep with me tonight." He said.
"Why? So I could forgive you and you hurt me again?"
"About the forgive part yes, but the hurt part no. I told you I would get a divorce. What else do you want from me?"
"I don't want anything else until that happens."
"Fine. I will do it later. Tomorrow. I promise. But come sleep with me."
"Fine."