Ganger's Rose

Part 3

"What?", I yelled
I lost it. His request, no... his demand, was too much to take in. He on the other side seemed calm and didn't move an inch. It made me even more angry. He should show a little bit respect to a grown up, strong woman like me, but he only grinned evilly. I wanted to slap him, punch him, even shoot him, but I couldn't. it would mean my mother's death. Before I could act, I should listen to him. My rage was bubbling up inside of me more and more, but it was dumb to act without planning something. Planning was what Shadow was known for. It was a part of me. and I wouldn't act stupid now.

Before I could act without thinking he spoke again.
"Marry me! That's all. Of course, your lovely mommy will be invited", he stated, the grin not leaving his face. It seemed like he was enjoying this moment. The moment of my helplessness, my mother's pain, and his victory. I didn't want to give it to him. I wanted him to let go of that shitty grin.
"You? Never! Why would I do this?", I yelled.
"Okay", he sighed disappointed and shrugged. Then he lazily stood up and walked to my mother. She started sweating badly. I saw how the fear in her eyes grew and I felt that something bad was about to happen.
He stopped and stood in front of her. He squatted down and held her face up, so she had to look directly in his eyes. She was sacred and disgusted at the same time. I saw that and it made me feel ever kind of bad feeling a human could feel. At least I had feelings. Not like this devil.

"Sad", he said "Should I give her another chance?"
He slowly observed her face. I could hear her muffled screams and crys. Tears were flowing down her cheeks now. She knew that she was in great danger and if I did what was the right thing, killing him, we both would die, and she knew it. My mother was a smart woman, and she would fight back if she had freed hands. Now she was defenseless and I was the only one that could save her. I just needed to have the right plan but seeing her like this made me too weak to use my head. I could always think clearly in emergency situations in the hospital but now, with my mother involved, I couldn't. I had to wait for his next move to act.

"Or should I...", he continued and sighed. Then he pulled his gun and pointed it at her. Now he was looking at me. His furious eyes were looking directly in my scared ones.
"Do you want to say something?", he asked.
"Please", I pleaded "Don't. She is everything I have."
"So? Marry me and she will be free."
Mom screamed again and intensely shook her head. She didn't want me to do it. She loved me and would give her life for me, but I wasn't able to bear this pain. It was either her or me and when she was involved there was only one option left. I needed to do it, I didn't have a choice and he knew that which caused the disgusting grin on his face. I didn't want it either.

"Why me?", I asked. He shrugged as an answer.
"I see", he said "you don't want to, huh?"
Now, he pointed his gun closer at my mom, and it touched her head. The tears in her eyes caused pain in my heart. He was about to shout but I stopped him.
"I'll do it!", I screamed, scared for my mother's life. I loved her to much to let her die just because I didn't want to marry Mr. K. I made it through three years of hell and had fights for live that made me almost lose my friends. I could stand this marriage too. I was strong and I could plan to kill this man. It was only one call, and my men would stand in front of his door, with weapons of every kind and they would fight until everyone in his mansion lost his head. But it needed a well-planned plan and I needed time for that. So, it wasn't smart to contact my team.

"Okay", he cheerfully said and smiled at me "Then it's settled."
Some men came inside. I turned around. Five men were standing inside the living room.
"Untie her mom and help her packing some things. I want you to be ready in 30 Minutes."
The men nodded at his command. One of them untied my mother.
She ran to me and hugged me.
"Why?", she cried "You shouldn't have done this."
"I know... it's okay", I reassured her.
"Mr. K?", I asked.
"Oh no. Call me Kai"
I told him that I didn't need something from here, because I wasn't living here. He shrugged it off and told me to follow him. Of course, he threatened my mother before, so she wouldn't call the police.

He brought me to one of the cars and I sat in the backseat. We drove to a huge mansion and he showed me around. I got my own room. At least for one night. The room was clean and comfortable, but very simple. I could see that it was just for one night.
The rest of the day passed by very slowly. I was sitting on the bed the whole time, thinking about this stupid thing I just agreed to. I had to be his wife. The wife of the biggest mafia boss of this country. He wouldn't be the biggest boss if shadow wouldn't be hidden tho.
But being his wife was bad, even if he wouldn't be the big gangster boss. His character was just bad, and I could never love a person like him. This stupid grin wouldn't leave my mind. It made me sick, and I wanted to vomit, but this guy wasn't worth it. he was disgusting.
I never thought of being someone's wife before. I was single and I was happy.
But tomorrow everything would change.



It wasn't a big wedding.

The next morning, I woke up by the sound of people yelling and talking. His friends were there. There was a maid that helped me to wear my dress.
It was beautiful. When I looked in the mirror, I forgot that I was marrying a criminal. This dress was perfect. It fitted perfectly, like it was made especially for me. It had a beautiful mermaid shape and a neckline that wasn't too big. And my back was exposed too. All in one it was rather simple. There wasn't much glitter or stuff on the dress. Just a bit and it made it look like it wasn't real.
But I had to come back to reality again. Yes, I was marrying him, and I had no other choice.

The ceremony was held in a small church. There weren't many guests. There only were six young men and one young woman sitting on his side at the pews. On mine was only my mother.
I had to walk down the aisle alone. It feld like the longest walk I ever had. While I was walking, I was looking at him. Not gonna lie, he was really handsome. He wore a black suit and a fly. His eyes glistened. He looked happy for a moment. I wasn't. I was scared. The bouquet in my hands helped me to hide my shivering hands.

I didn't really listen to the words of the priest. Only while we had to do the vows I looked up at him.
And after we put the rings on each other fingers, it was time. Time for what everyone would be waiting for, if it was a normal wedding. But it wasn't. And I feared what would come next. The kiss.
"You may kiss the bride", the words of the priest were echoing in my ears. He wouldn't, would he?
And yes, he would.
Luckily it was short. He shortly pecked my lips. I didn't kiss him at all.

There wasn't a big party afterwards. Mom went home and I went to his mansion again. I knew I had to share a room with him now. The room I slept in was just for the day before the wedding.
But before this came, we sat in the big living room with his friends. They had their own rooms in this house, but they also had their own homes, because they weren't living here. Their rooms were ony for short periots of time. That rarely slept here. At least one of them told me that. I didn't know his name or the names of the others. I only knew that they were Mr. K's men and friends.

While they were drinking wine and celebrated the wedding, I sat there and stared blankly at my glass. I was still in my dress and it slowly got uncomfortable.
I was glad when they stopped celebrating and went home. But I wasn't glad that I had to stay with him. I went to OUR bedroom and tried to change. He came in without knocking and caught me trying to open my dress. But I couldn't. He looked at me, grinned slightly and sighed.
"Let me help you", he offered and approached me. I backed away.
"Do you want to sleep in it? I just want to help you"
I gave in. What else should I do? It was only for a short time and I promised myself that I wouldn't let his dirty fingers touch me again. I knew that it was impossible and I couldn't know what would happen in the futue. Maybe we could get along, but I doubted it. he was a bad criminal only taking lives for money.

After he opened the dress he didn't move. I didn't want to undress in front of him. But the thought of me undressing in front of him seemed to amuse him. He grinned. Again. This was this stupit grin I hated so much.
I stepped back until I hit the bed. Of course, I couldn't hold myself, stumbled and fell on the fluffy bed. He approached me again.
"You know you look hot, right?", he asked.
He wasn't going to... oh no... Of course. He wanted to marry me and of course he wanted to have the night after that wedding. But I couldn't. I couldn't lose my virginity to a man like him.
I closed my eyes and shook my head.
"What?", he asked.
"Please. I can't. I know...", I started to stutter the last part.
"You know what?", he asked skeptically.
"I... normally... after a wedding... I... I...", I wasn't able to say it.
He seemed to understand and stepped back. I opened my eyes when I heard him sighing again.
He shook his head now a disappointed and sad look was on his face. But it wasn't like he was sad about me not wanting to sleep with him. It looked like he was sad that I thought like this about him. I saw that, because I learned how to read peoples faces.

"I'm not going to do this. I'm not forcing you. I would never. I'm not a monster. I can understand and never had the intention to do it. I'm sorry."
He was different now. Soft. Like there was a different person in this room. Did I hurt him or something? Why wasn't he like he was before?
"I will go downstairs. This door leads to the bathroom", he pointed at a door "And this is the door of the walk in closed. I prepared some things for you. You will also find a pajama. I will go to the kitchen. If you need something, say it."
With this he walked outside.

I changed my clothes and freshened up. After this I laid on the bed and placed a big pillow between me and the side he would sleep on.
Tiredness took over me and I fell asleep very fast.

The next morning, I woke up due to the sun shining in the room. Our room. But I was alone. He wasn't there and his side of the bed looked like it wasn't even touched.
Did he even sleep here?
I walked out of the room and made my way to the kitchen. The smell of fresh bacon hit my nose. I heard my stomach grumble.
When I reached the kitchen, my eyes widened, and I tried hard not to laugh. But I couldn't help it. What I was seeing was something... unexpected.
"If you don't stop laughing, I will shoot you", Kai said with a grumpy voice. I just shook my head and walked towards him.
"I don't...", he slowly said "I mean... normally I'm not doing this. The apron isn't mine... that's why it's... pink..."
His cheeks flushed red. The big gangster boss was really standing in front of me, wearing a pink apron and cooking breakfast.
"I didn't know that you can be fun", I said still laughing lightly.
"Are you insulting me?", he asked sarcastically.

He put the food on the plates and gave one to me. We ate together. I wasn't as uncomfortable as I was before, because of the incident with the apron, but it still felt strange. I was eating with a man I didn't really know. I got to know him as the heartless gangster, but now he was... different.
"Where did the bad guy go?", I asked.
He tilted his head indicating that he didn't understand.
"Why...", I continued "why do you act different?"
"Oh", he sighed "I'm sorry for my behavior. I... what you said yesterday made me think. I'm not that bad actually. You will see."
He suddenly stood up without eating his bacon.
"I have to go now. We got a mission and... yeah... Jill will come later. She will tell you the details."
With this he left the house and left me all alone. Without an answer and with a strange feeling.