It's Complicated ~ Emily Prentiss

Part 17

I sat there waiting anxiously in the hospital waiting room, my knee bouncing up and down.

"She's going to make it" Hotch said as he sat besides me.

I nodded and kept my head down, not feeling in the mood for there forced optimism. I know they were trying to help but it wasn't working.

"Any updates?" I asked.

Hotch shook his head. He let out a sigh and reached over placing his hand on my knee to get me to stop.

"Y/n it's going to be ok" Hotch said softly.

I stood up out of my chair throwing my hands in the air. I was sick of it. I ran my hands angrily over my head.

"You don't know that Hotch, can someone please tell me the fucking truth for once" I shouted at him.

Hotch stayed silent and the rest of the team looked over to me not knowing what to see.

"Please" I begged.

"She might not make it" Spencer spoke up.

The words hurt but it was the truth.

"Thank you, see not everything is a fucking fairytale" I scoffed.

Hotch let out a sigh and ran his hands over his face.

"You're right I'm sorry" Hotch admitted leaning back into his chair.

"This whole situation is just awful" JJ said sitting besides me.

I turned over to glance at the blonde.

"But remember you aren't the only one who is going through this" JJ said.

I scoffed and stood up walking to the otherside of the room leaning against the wall.

"I'm not stupid Jeniffer" I scoffed.

"Than stop acting like your the only one hurting" JJ shouted at me.

Spencer stood infront of me glaring at JJ telling her to back off. I pushed Spencer to the side.

"You don't get it" I spat.

"What don't I get?" JJ said in a trying tone.

"I witnessed her die JJ, I was there the whole time with Doyle" I shouted.

JJ bit her bottom lip.

"And you can't possibly get it JJ, because unlike you I was in love with Emily. We were together and I can't lose her" I shouted.

JJ was taken back in suprise.

"You two were together?" Hotch repeated.

"Yeah" I said staring at JJ.

"I'm sorry, I didn't know" JJ sighed.

"Yeah that's right you didn't" I scoffed.

JJ left the room and I sat back down next to Derek, I leant over and rested my head against his shoulder feeling exhausted.

"Come here kid" Derek said wrapping his arm around me.

We stayed there for a few hours until Garcia came rushing in, she had brought me clean clothes from my apartment so I could change out of the hospital scrubs I was given.

"Thank you" I said softly grabbing my clothes.

Penelope sighed and brought me into a soft hug holding me close.

"I know how much Emily meant to you Y/n" Penelope said.

I pulled away and looked at her in suprise.

"How did you-" I began but she cut me off.

"I know everything love" Garcia said.

A small chuckle escaped my lips the first one in a while.

"I'm here for you, we all are we'll get through this no matter what happens" Penelope said.

She was talking about Emily not making it.

I nodded and left the room getting changed in the bathroom. I looked in the mirror at myself. My eyes were bloodshot and puffy. Tears began to fall down my face and they wouldn't stop.

"Fuck" I muttered.

I walked back out into the main room I could see Hotch and JJ talking in thw next room, there eyes flicking over to me as I entered the room.

"What are they talking about?" I asked.

My voice was hoarse from all the crying and shouting.

"I don't know" Rossi sighed.

We were all struggling and coping in different ways. I mainly felt angry, angry at everyone. Angry that I might lose the one person I've ever truly cared about.

"She has to make it Spencer" I whispered.

"I know" Spencer replied sadly.

After a couple more minutes JJ entered the room again as Hotch stayed in the hallway his gaze fixed to the floor. Tears were streaming down her face.

"What is it?" Derek asked.

"Is it about Emily?" I asked.

JJ gulped and nodded.

"What happened is she ok?" I begged.

"She never made it off the table" JJ said.

The words hit me like a train. The words I knew I would hear but didn't want to. I dropped to the ground as tears streamed down my face.

She was gone, she was really gone.

Emily Prentiss was dead.

My lover was dead.

The End