𝙡𝙚𝙩'𝙨 𝙜𝙧𝙤𝙤𝙫𝙚 ✓

☮ so close yet so far ☮

AN: this chapter is about to be pure pain and just angst but there's most likely going to be smut next chapter yeah but i based this chapter off of "idfc" by blackbear so if you want to listen to that i do recommend

You and Armin spend four days fucking way too much, giving each other head in the office under the desk, learning how your mother died, basically just getting to know each other way more, hell he even watched you take birth control.

You two put your brains together and always made the perfect excuse through out this week if anyone questioned anything.

Today you woke up in the routine created for this week, nestled into the blondies toned chest.

Tomorrow is the day Hanji and your dad come back.

It dawned on you in a dream, well no, more like nightmare, you couldn't do this forever, you couldn't hide.

You just managed to luck out with them leaving.

It will be harder to hide.

You cannot run forever, sneaking around.

You can't.

No matter how much you want to.

You can't.

risking you and his position for sex? Possibly his life?

No.

He's too good for you.

All these things being whispered, no force fed into your ear as you're tied down to a chair, while memories of you and Armin swarming around you.

You open your eyes went straight to the door for your morning pee.

Armin looked at your face this morning. You didn't have the usual smile. Your whole body language was off.

He was used to you storming out the room when you had to use the bathroom.

You look at yourself in the mirror, the bitter pill you had to swallow.

Whoever that was whether it's your subconscious telling you this or a ghost, they're right.

You hesitate going back into your room.

You can take the day off. I'm sure Eren is looking for you." you deadpan while right in the doorframe so you won't have to make eye contact.

somethings off

"Are you sure? we ca-" Armin was about to offer to cook you breakfast just so he could stay with you a little longer, like he did on Saturday, when he made breakfast in bed with all your favorite foods and spent a good half the day having sex and eating.

"I'm sure."

"Are you okay?"

"Yeah I'm just worn out from this week I just want to finish the last few papers."

Worn out? You have that Ackerman blood. Armin has a bad feeling.

"I can do th-" another failed attempt.

He's trying so hard to look on the bright side.

"No I have to sign them. If I need you I'll get you."

Armin hesitates to leave your room but you didn't say anything about 'breaking up' or calling it off.

You didn't want to show Armin your face, he picked up on that. He tried to subtly look at your pretty face one last time but you just walked into your room an closed the door and locked it.