Herein My Heart (Voyage Of Us Series #1)

Chapter 49

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Lolo will going to visit in our house now. I woke up so early just to be here. Fuck it! I planned to rest all day for today but I guess I won't. Sa lahat ng magpipinsan ay ako lamang ang palagi nitong pinapakealaman. I don't like that. I'm a human too. I can control myself on my own. Hindi ko gustong pinapakialaman ako. Even Mom and Dad know that but him fuck it! Ba't hindi siya nakakahalata?! I'm not a kid and I'm not a Moriliano for nothing.

Kung pwede lamang maging bobo ay nagpakabobo na ako for him not to middle in my decisions. Sa akin lamang daw niya nakikita ang magandang future. Bullshit that! Hindi ko pinangarap ang maging katulad niyang sobrang yaman in the future. I just want a normal life. To become just a great engineer, that's it.

I looked around in this mini mall. Kunti pa lamang naman ang tao kasi maaga pa. Paniguradong hindi ako makikita ng mga tauhan ni lolo kung ipapahanap man niya ako which he usually do when I'm nowhere to find. Sounds childish. I just get one bottled water. I don't used to drink coffee as it would surely make me vomit instead of waking me up a bit early at the morning.

Tumayo lamang ako sa gilid nitong mini mall habang pinagmamasdan ang labas na patuloy ang mga sasakyan na dumadaan. Being rich is not good as always. Mas malaya pa nga yung taong mahirap kaysa sa mayaman kung minsan. I don't say that I hated of being born as a rich, I just.. just want in the middle. Ayaw kong nasa taas. Magulang ko ang mayaman hindi ako.

Halos maibuga ko ang iniinom kong water nung may biglang tumabi sa aking babae. I unconsciously stare at her. Her eyes were both close while having her drink too. She's not that pretty not my type as well. My eyes widened when I noticed that she's taking an alcoholic drink. I want her to stop because I think she doesn't even noticed it.

Halatang hindi niya alam na yun ang iniinom niya dahil ang bilis niya itong nilalagok. Fuck it! I chuckled.  Kailan pa ako nangingialam sa iba? She's just wearing a black hoodie jacket and a pants with a maroon shoes. Ang isa pa nitong kamay ay nasa bulsa ng suot niyang hoodie jacket.

"Aray!" Her voice was so soft after finishing that alcoholic drink. I felt something weird hearing that. I just furrowed my brows. It her fault. Sino ba naman ang aaray sa lakas ng tama nung iniinom niya? But that voice....damn it! Hindi ko alam kung bakit may epekto akong naramdaman dun. It was just a voice. Nakarinig na rin naman ako ng aray galing sa ibang babae but this one hits different making it more weird.

I'm so stupid staring and guarding her. Bagsak siya dito sa isang table. Umupo ako sa harap niyang hindi niya nalalaman. Nakapatong ang kanyang ulo sa table na parang mahimbing ang tulog. Dito pa talaga naisipan tumulog. I was so stupid being here and have the feeling of worrying kahit hindi ko naman kilala. Actually I don't have the care to anyone. Siguro sa kapatid ko lamang tsaka sa magulang ko. Yung sa iba ko namang kamag anak, I don't. They can handle theirself. Lahat magagaling.

May hiblang tumakas sa kanyang buhok tsaka napunta ito malapit sa kanyang bibig. She's unconsciously eating a bit of it. Napatingin tuloy ako sa labi nito. Fuck it! This girl makes me felt something. Halos kainin niya na yung buhok na iyon kaya dahan dahan kong inalis yun. Ano bang nangyayari sa akin? I shouldn't do this. What's with the guts I have right now?!

Uminom ulit ako sa bottled water na hawak ko  at halos pagpawisan ako nung binalik ko ang tingin ko sa kanyang labi. Damn! Why the hell I'm nervous today? Minsan lamang ako makaramdam ng kaba. Staring at her red lips is like a sin. Staring at her whole is like something.

She even lick a little bit of it which makes it more redder. Pumupula din ang kanyang pisngi siguro ay dahil sa nainom niya. Pinagpawisan ako ng sobra dahil sa nakikita ko. I wipe those immediately. Weird? Iba iba ba talaga ang nararamdaman kapag maaga nagigising? Fuck it! Kung ganito palagi ang mararamdaman ko ay ayoko ng gumising pa ng maaga.