i sit on my bed anxiosly at 3 am in the moring first year of high school.
"nothing could go wrong right?" in my head i said that over and over again as if i was despritly waiting for a answer from myself.
'no- i was about to say .
anxiety cut me off... "yes!"
i felt like i was going to faint.
but i heard my mom "WHY R U UP SO DAMN EARLY"
'she was drunk like always'
"oh uh just drinking some water ill go to sleep now" i said scared
"GOOD NOW STFU" she answered angerly.
i tried not to cry...
i woke up at 5 am but school starts at 8 am .
i was thinking of what to wear so maybe the kids wont make fun of me .
"AHHH " i said loudly in my head .
a long sleave back shurt with riped skinny back jeans.
i wasnt sure that the kids would like it but i didnt care anymore.
"YES U DO" anxiety said.
'i stupedly pushed it aside'
'anxeity is always right.but i ignored the fact'
hours went by me just putting on black eye liner black mascera and red lip stick with my stupid lip piercing i pierced myself in the summer..who am i kidding i was drunk yup a young person like me was drunk. my mom doesnt give a fuck so i keeped it.
it was 8 am . my anxeity was taking over...
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broken trust-5 seconds of summer [[luke hemmings fan fic]]
FanfictionTRIGGER WARNING:self harm , depression. depressed . self harm. anxeity. will luke understand my pain?