broken trust-5 seconds of summer [[luke hemmings fan fic]]

broken

i sit on my bed anxiosly at 3 am in the moring first year of high school. 

  "nothing could go wrong right?" in my head i said that over and over again as if i was despritly waiting for a answer from myself.

'no- i was about to say .

anxiety cut me off... "yes!"

i felt like i was going to faint.

but i heard my mom "WHY R U UP SO DAMN EARLY" 

'she was drunk like always'

"oh uh just drinking some water ill go to sleep now" i said scared

"GOOD NOW STFU" she answered angerly.

i tried not to cry...

i woke up at 5 am but school starts at 8 am .

i was thinking of what to wear so maybe the kids wont make fun of me .

"AHHH " i said loudly in my head . 

a long sleave back shurt with riped skinny back jeans.

i wasnt sure that the kids would like it but i didnt care anymore. 

"YES U DO" anxiety said.

'i stupedly pushed it aside'

'anxeity is always right.but i ignored the fact'

hours went by me just putting on black eye liner black mascera and red lip stick with my stupid lip piercing i pierced myself in the summer..who am i kidding i was drunk yup a young person like me was drunk. my mom doesnt give a fuck so i keeped it. 

it was 8 am . my anxeity was taking over...

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