gunpowder & whiskey - m.chifuyu

04

— "fuyu! oh my fucking god you had me worried." you quickly hugged him.

he looks fragile. he looks like he could break any minute seeing the bruises and blood on his body.

you pulled away and decided to help him, but the guys insisted to carry him.

"thank you." you said and still helped them with their bags, that's the least you could do for now.

the sky was so dark that it's clearly saying that it's going to rain soon and the team needs to hurry up to the warehouse.

you reached the warehouse and told chifuyu to lay down so you can treat his wounds.

he did lay down but he looked uneasy, chifuyu seemed like he needed some time alone with you and was wanting to tell you something.

turns out, you were right after all.

he did needed some time to talk to you.

after treating his wounds, the whole group except for the both of you went to the other side of the warehouse.

"seems..... personal. are you okay fuyu?" you asked in a worried tone, helping him sit up.

"y-yeah i just—"

it's on the tip of his tongue.

chifuyu just didn't have the guts to say it.

"you know i love you so much right?" he said randomly, making you more confused than you already are because chifuyu only reminds you of how he loves you when the situation is life threatening.

"look chifuyu, i love you too but i need you to tell me the truth. what the hell happened earlier?"

you've never seen him more nervous like this.

he couldn't have cheated right? why would he? in this situation, who in the right mind would have the time to do that kind of shit?

"fuyu?"

silence.

"love?"

silence.

"chifuyu please."

he finally looked at you.

tears continuously running down his cheeks.

"i was pushed........ outside earlier. in the rain."

he's joking, right?

"good joke 10/10 delivery i'm laughing so hard."

please tell me you were kidding.

"i'm sorry."

please.

"please make up a fucking excuse. i don't care if you lie, i'll believe you."

"i'm sorry y/n."

he didn't deny anything.

he didn't say it was a joke, a prank or even made up an excuse that'll get you out of this in denial feeling.

all you needed was someone to wake you up from this dream, this horrible fucking truth that you can't escape no matter what.

"chifuyu, why?"

"i'm sorry."

"all you ever said in your whole life was fucking sorry and i'm sick of it. chifuyu, can't you just lie to me?"

your words hit him like he was in front of a train.

that's true, all he ever did in his life was say sorry because even if he tells the truth, it'll still hurt everyone.

you had so many questions to ask him but maybe, just maybe, it was time to accept that chifuyu is not gonna make it with you until the end.

"i hate you so much."

"i'm sorry."

chifuyu hugged you.

you are probably infected by now but if it means being with him until your last breath then you'll do it.

"we haven't danced in the rain for a while now right?"

you and chifuyu already accepted it. there was no way out.

"may i ask my lady for a dance?"

you accepted his hand. both eyes overflowing with tears but this time, you were happy that you get to this with him until the end.

"i hope the universe will give us a second chance."

"a second life."

"and in that life, i'll protect you properly." he added.

"i'm sorry, and i love you."

"i love you in this life, and i'll continue loving you until the next one."

it hurts when the both of you still love each other but fate doesn't allow it anymore, but maybe, in the next life.