You Chose HIM

Long story short I was sexually molested for roughly 7 years of my life. Ya you herd that right, 7 fucking years. You'll hear about that another time. Well today hit me in the feels. It has been 14 years since I put an end to this. 14 years since I walked out of his house and never looked back. Why does he feel welcome now? Why would he dare to show his face here?

Today is September 27th, 2021. Today is the day I cried like no other after hearing about you again for the first time in years. Today my heart exploded when my baby sister facetimed me to let me know he was at my old house. The house that I grew up in. Where all of my childhood memories were made. Where my family was and currently is.

Why would you welcome him in? Why would you sit there and act like you know nothing of what he has done to me? Why would you laugh and smile like everything is right in the world and act as if he didn't take your child's youth and make it polluted with sexual recollections? Why? I just don't get it. I am a mother now. I have 2 beautiful children that I would do anything for. You bet your ass if someone touched them the way I was there life would end. You're my parent... You're the one who is supposed to protect me and make me feel safe. You're the one who is supposed to fight off all my daemons and shield me from there infected damage. Why is it that you chose him? Why would you not choose me?

I guess I will never truly understand.

Sincerely,

A heartbroken child.