15 days (Hosie)

day one disbelief

Hope and josie have been dating for about a year when something absolutely horrible happens. Josie has been coughing alot recently and it was getting harder and harder for Josie to breathe so hope took her to the hospital only to find out that her girlfriend had a condition and she only had 15 days left to live.

This devastated hope more than she could even explain and she knew this was going to hurt as much as her parents death.

She hated how everyone she opened up too always died on her and she didn't know if she could keep on going.

Hopes pov

I just found out the love of my life was dying and there's nothing I can even do about it. I was scared really scared about what would happen i didn't want to live alone without her.

I hated it and it made everything ruin. I had plans with Josie a future but now it was took by this stupid stupid illness.

I look over at Josie who had a frown. Josie sits up and comes and sits in my lap hugging around my back.

I give her a quick kiss on the cheek and carry her back to the school. I knew that I wanted to stay and be supportive of her.

I carried her up to our room as I started to feel upset again i lock the door and we lay down and I keep hiler tucked in my arms safety as I always do.

I head her start to drift off to sleep. I didn't want jo to. Be sick I hated seeing her in pain and I was mostly just in disbelief and concern but then again I don't know if there's anything I can really do about it.

I sit there thinking about how I would go on without her and honestly I don't know if I can go on without her. She has been there for me ever since I even went to the school. It was just so hard to wrap my head around that she would soon be gone and I didn't know how to even react.

It hurt me to think about the fact she didn't have long. It felt like a weight on my heart. And i felt like I needed to find a way to save her from this horrible situation but then again I don't think there's much I can do.

I don't know if I can wrap my head around it I just don't know. I feel lost. And like this can't be real

Josies pov

I been feeling sick lately and after going to the hospital and I was faced with the knees that I was going to die in 15 days.

It honestly didn't fase me to much I mean it was sad but I needed to love it up while I could I mean now lizzie and I don't need to merge and I was already having and expiration date anyways so now it just a way that lizzie or me doesn't have to consume eachother.

I knew this would be hard for hope to loose endothelial person so I was going to be by her side through it all so I could help her anytime that she might need it.

Sge brought me home and to bed and I cabt remember much after that so I mist have fallen asleep.

The burning in my throat and the pressure on my chest was horrible though. I don't even know how I got stuck with a condition like this because it is downright torture.

At first I thought it was a cold but theb as the days passed it got worse and worse with adding coughing, pressure, and trouble breathing.

Damn I just wish I would have listened to hope when she told me I should go to the doctor or hospital. It feels like she had been warning me the whole time but I didn't listen and well now we are in this situation.

The least I can do is just accept it. I know it will probably just get worse but on the bright side I will get to spend a lot of time with my lived ones and I will probably get a little spoiled from then but still it truly won't make up to the pain that is yet to come.

I can accept that soon I won't be here. I can handle the fact that I will be in pain  but it truly devastates me to the fact that hope will have to loose me.

We been dating for a year I mean its pretty serious we even talked about getting married or adopting in the future but now its all going to go down the drain and I cant help but yo few that its my fault that we won't get our dreams.

I don't know maybe I'm overthinking I just want to live in the moment.

I can here hope eventually putting the covers on me and kissing my hed before laying down herself. I was half asleep but I still knew that hopes head was probably spinning quite a bit from everything else thats going on.

I go back to our normal cuddling position that we do most night with me on her pillow and in her arms.

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Thank you for reading this will probably have around 15-16 chapters then it will be done ✔
~rosie_the_phyco