as you can tell this is my
first day of writing here
mainly due to the fact that i have nothin else to do other than make the people i teach/practice do hard work as in ton of active movement n such
sigh anyways.
kinda needed a diary to let my feelings out on certain things
no i dont hold grudges against others
well sometimes but its not that bad
im talkin about
feelings
that you get from just lookin at someone n you just feel things
now this may sound strange but hear me out
pretty sure ive been fallin way too hard for a student here
mind you this is college not highschool or anythin else of that nature
ew no gross get out.
but anyway
there's
this guy i've had my eyes on for
literal years
i haven't told anyone about it but myself of course
kinda feel pretty pathetic since
yknow i teach one of his classes n well
he doesn't acknowledge me nor do i acknowledge him either
yknow just keepin all these feelings bottled because
i don't wanna seem ike a creep
which im not
im like two, three years older than this guy
im just someone who teaches him
sigh.
man
im pretty sure that if i tell him anythin ill lose my job for bein 'weird', or he changes his classes maybe
probably leave the school too, who knows..
i just don't want to seem weird to him at all
i mean im heavily distant with my feelings around him but im sure i cracked a bit
yknow.. bein a lil bit nice to him n carin about him when he gets tired of runnin the mile long laps i tell him n the class to run
man i
im just close to tellin him
i don't know what ill say but im okay with any negative outcome, its gonna happen.
