if you go down, im not going with you

you know your right

I'm sitting in a dark, and cold jail cell, rotting away. They had to lock me away from the real world because of my violent outbursts, and because well... I'm a criminal. But, it wasn't always like this. I used to be normal. I used to be the calm one, the contained one. Clearly, I've changed. To be completely honest, I have one person to blame. Raine Enber. She ruined my life, and left me with less than nothing. She took my sanity, and what was ever left of me with her when she left. The relationship drained me, I knew it was one sided. Sometimes it's hard to end a relationship, it was hard because I loved her so much I gave up my life for her. Yes, you're probably thinking, this is also your fault. Taking full responsibility would be me lying to myself, me lying to you. I do take some responsibility, but Im not going to hammer myself on it. I wish I wouldn't have been so trusting, so dumb, so foolish. We weren't even dating  back then, it was kind of this unspoken rule. I wish I could go back and change the past, I wish there was some time machine so I can go back, and fix my mistakes. But this isn't some crazy movie where I can find one on the street, and stop myself from doing something dumb. But no, this is real, this is reality. One of the hardest things for me to realize is that the past is already there, it already happened. No matter how much I try, it wont change. The past is my present, and my future. The past shapes your life. Back then I thought it could never get worse, clearly I thought wrong.  Now, Im stuck in prison, life without a possibility of parole. You know your right when the prisoners take your side. There is always one way out even if it seems imposible, exposing is my only hope.