How could i be so stupid?

The kiss

The week went by pretty fast, I did'nt see him again after monday, but that's okay. I did think about maybe going to one of his fottball matches, but I didn't do it. 

Monday 18. August 

My mother woke me up with her hairdryer making so much sound. I went into the bathroom. I took a piss and then showered. While I was in the shower I couldn't stop thinking about Louis, I couldn't stop thinking about that he had looked at me.

"Harry come down here" I heard my mom ask, it got me out of the thoughts about Louis. I put on clothes an then I heard her again "Harry it's important" "I'm coming" I said.

When I got down my mom looked stressed, very stressed. "what is it?" "Youre dads lawyer called, it's no good, Harry" I didn't want to hear more so I ran out of the house. I've always knew that my father had problems, but I never wanted to believe it. 

I lived a bit away form school so I took the bus everyday with Zayn. He wasn't there when I got there. I was very early. And there he was. The prettiest boy i have ever seen, Louis. He was wearing a green Adidas hoodie and some plain black skinny jeans, damn he looked good.

It was nobody there except from me and Louis. He  hadn't seen me yet and I just wanted Zayn to show up. He was looking at his phone so I understand that he didn't see me. 

A car drove by and then he looked up and saw me. He smiled at med, he fucking smiled at me. It was this weird smile. Of course I smiled back. Then he returned back to his phone. 

Zayn and the rest of the people that used to take the buss came and then the buss. The whole buss ride I had a feeling of somone watching me.

"We are having an English test today" zayn said when we got to our lockers. I didn't know that we had a test, but I have always been very good in English so it's probably no big deal. When Zayn said this Niall and Barbarra allready joined us. 

"Do you guys wanna come to my place after school" Barbara asked. Of course Niall wanted to. He has had a crush on Barbarra since second grade. "I actually have some homework to do" I said. "Oh okay, But you can just do them at my place" "He looks at you" Niall said and looked at me. "What?" I asked "The Louis Tomlinson is looking at you" I turned around and yes he was right Louis looked straight at me then he suddenly started walking out the doors.

"What was all that about, Harold?" Barbarra asked. "I have no idea" i answered truthfully. Barbarra was right, what was alll that about? I didn't have time to think about it because the schoolbell rang and we had to go to class.

The English test we had went just as I excpected. Right now we are sitting in the cafeteria at one of the tables. "Hey haven't seen you in a while" I heard Liam said in a distant, I hoped it wasn't to me. Liam is one of the jocks that only care about girls and popualrity. I know him because we went in the same kindergarden when we were younger. 

When I heard his footsteps get closer I knew that he was talking to me. I turned around and I got met with all of the football guys's eyes. "um hello" i said. "we just wanted to ask you guys about - "NO" Niall said loudly. "What" Liam asked. "I don't want to hear any of your bullshit" Liam sighed and than said "we just wanted to invite you to a party that's going to be on friday" I haven't thought about it before now, but Louis wasn't there. I wonder where he is.

"It will be food, beer, a pool and you don't have to bring anything" Liam explaind. Now it was my turn to talk " why do you guys want us there?" "I dont want to" I heard someone say in the back, I think his name is Lucas. "We want you there because you are cool people, right guys?" Liam asked the fotball team and they hesitated, but did say yes.

"It's a party to celebrate our win on friday." Lucas said. A girl that was now involved in this coversation suddenly said "If you win.." The guys didn't care about her and went on. This time it was james turn to talk. "since it's a game to celebrate the win, you guys have to come and watch the game to. The game starts 6 pm and the party 9.30. see you there" and then they all walked out.

"Ok what was that?" Stan asked. "Do you think Louis is going to be there?" Barbarra asked. I have no idea why she just asked that, "yes probably" I said. "Ok, I'm in" Barbarra said. I turned over to look at Niall and he was furious. Wait do Barbarra like Louis? I like Louis!

As planned we went to Barbarra's house after school, I had some homework to do so I did them. When I finished everyone was a little bored so we figured out we could go and eat at our usual diner. 

We arrived at the diner and what I haven't told you about this place is that it's Niall's mom and dad that owns the place. Every time we go there we get free food and drinks from them. Today i figured out I was going to eat a cheesburger, but before I was allowed to order the whole fotball team + Louis Tomlinson came in the diner. I  was not that surprised because they eat there every monday after practise

I  might have come up with the idea to go to the diner because of Louis, but no one will now that. 

The fotball team sat at a table directly over us but suddenly I couldn see Louis. We got our food a while ago, but none of us have finished yet. Barbara went to the toilets and I wanted to, but I couldn't because what if Louis is there. Louis was no where to be seen so i thought he might have gone to the toilet. I really needet to go to the toilet to so I took a chance and I went in

When I got to the toilets I heard sounds of someone kissing. I prayed that it was not Louis. I went into one of the toilets and in excactly that moment I wish I didn't because what I saw was not appeling. LOUIS TOMLINSON kissing my best friend Barbarra WHATTHEHELL. I ran out. That might have been the weirdest thing I have ever seen I thought to myself. 

I didn't even eat my food up I just went straight home. 

Gemma new it was something wrong when I got home. "Has Louis looked at you again AHAHA" "No I just saw him snug Barbara actually" I said. " what a fucking loser she is" Gemma said. She is still my bestfriend i thought. And no one no that I like him. And noe one will. except from Gemma though.