Betrothed to the earl

chapiter 19

The time came Rose told herself after getting the latter that she hoped wouldn't come so soon but it did and as she glanced at the sleeping form of Nicholas she felt an uncomfortable feeling settle above her chest but it seemed like their love making tired him to make a noise, so she creeped out of the bed watching the morning sun rise. She slowly walked out of the room and closed it

Thankfully everyone in the household was asleep leaving her in utter darkness

She grabbed a candle and lit it before finding a guest room.

Her fingers shaked as she opened the letter

1813

May, Stonehenge

I am so sorry my dear for taking the longest time to write you but know that I have great news to share. The gossip is settled, and no one is focused. My uncle found the perfect place for us all it is In Hampshire though it is very far we will have our freedom and travel. Obviously you are married when this letter reach you so we already chose a new identity for you, it is all settled my dear. A carriage will wait for you a few kilometers away from Carnarvon you will just have to sneak away and if you have not arrived three days after this letter Is received I will personally pluck you out of there.

Celeste

As Rose read the words she did not realize a tear rolled down her cheek as she cupped her mouth to suppress the sound, she covered her hands with her face a thousand thoughts traveling through her mind. How could she face herself knowing she want to crawl back in the bed with a man that is her husband.. but at the same time not go against her morals.

Marriage will be suffocating, yes she might find pleasure in bed but their like ice and fire, meant to clash in every way. It would be tiring at one point she told herself even though she could not see it, she had to see it.

Her list.. her accomplishments, that cant be thrown out the window.

But Nicholas can?

How awful she felt in that moment she had to make a choice even though it killed her.

And the answer came out itself when Rose was deep in thoughts for two days of what to do, tomorrow will be her last day she told herself, ''Darling are you listening?'' Nicholas broke her thoughts

She was doing it again, ''I'm sorry..''

He shook his head smiling before giving her a chaste kiss, ''I wonder what occupied your mind more than me, but what I was saying is that I will be gone for a time to run errands that need to be taken care off''

Her eyes snapped towards him and weirdly hearing that did not make her jump up and down in happiness for her perfect moment of escape, ''Oh'' she blurted

He sighed wanting nothing but cancel it, he cleared his throat''I rather would----'' she cut him off quickly, ''No, You have business needing to be taken care off'' how she said it got a reaction from Nicholas who stopped buttoning his collar

''You are my wife and my first priority''

''But not your only, besides you are an earl after all'' Rose bite her inner cheek feeling disappointed, weeks of enjoying his presence had turned her into this bloody love fools. She mentally groaned when she meet his gaze,

He was everything, truthful and honest when she could not even say half of her truth.

Nicholas let out an sigh, ''Sweetheart I wish to tuck you in my luggage this very moment''

Rose chuckled at that before asking a question, ''How long?''

''Two weeks''

''Where?''

''London and Manchester''

That was both far away from her destination and still gave her time to travel to Hampshire and back. But she would not travel back, this very moment would be the last time with him. She loved this man, and god if she wanted to realize it

Something overtook her but it was strong as she strided up from the bed and held his hand who was busy fixing his hair, ''Wha—'' he stopped as she tiptoed and kissed him deeply. She felt a burning sensation in her throat that was on the verge of tears but she did not let it slip, her soft lips caressed his buttom lip so slowly that she hoped he would not understand the goodbye in her kiss.

She broke the kiss and immediately stepped away, Nicholas shock was real, ''i will cancel that trip'' he groaned after coming down from the fact that she started the kiss and left him wanting more.