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TransAU

Trans!tommy cus manz gotta vent about their body dysphoria some how.

Based in the dreamsmp (them as their avatars basically) enjoy my lovelies.

Au: Tommy is trans fTm and has bad dysphoria hours 😔🤚

Triggers:
-dysphoria
-mentions of drowning?
-breakdown/slight panic attack
-mentions of eating disorder

3rd person pov:
Tommy groaned as his eyelids reluctantly opened only to be blinded by the morning sun. He raised a hand over his face, blocking as much sun as possible, his eyes watering as they slowly adjusted to the new light.

He swung the covers off of him and quickly sat up ready to start a new day. Only to immediately regret it.
He felt that heavy weight on his chest. One of the many parts of his body that he oh so despised.

A sudden wave of dysphoria hit like a ton of a bricks- no. A wave. Like when you swim too far out into the ocean and a wave hits your head, suddenly engulfing you within the salty blinding ocean. You are lost and confused. The split second of utter fear and feeling trapped in a loop as you panic.

Until you feel the sweet release of all your fears. The second your head resurfaces and you can breathe, you can see, you are safe. Almost instantly forgetting what just happened and swimming to a safer distance to the shore. You will end up swimming back out again, maybe subconsciously. But it will happen again.

Well that's how Tommy felt that very second.

He had just got hit by that wave.

And was now under the water.

He sat and stared at the wooden walls of the cabin infront of him. He was in his room but... he didn't feel like he was? He was completely zoned out. He couldn't focus on anything around him only the thoughts from the salty wave that swallowed him.

Wrong body.
Girl.
Feminine.
Large chest.
Gross.
Not a real man.
Will never be a boy.

All these thoughts engulfed his reality. He didn't dare look at a reflective surface, nor could he think of doing so at this moment. Staring at that same wall. His mind racing (manz brain speed running faster than dream to ur mums house dudududu sorry-).
Alas. A knock at his door. The very thing that saved him from his continuous spiral of thoughts and emotions.

Still feeling a bit shaken, he plodded along to the bedroom door, "who is it?" He chocked, he was completely unaware that there were even tears on his face, he slapped a hand over his mouth in shock, in hopes that whoever it was would just think it was because he had just woken up. Tommy's mind had already tricked him into believing it himself, his memory altered to believe his voice had sounded different.

"Tommy...? Are you alright there, man?" Wilbur. Of course it was Wilbur. It had to be Wilbur. (Ayo I wrote that last Wilbur the EXACT moment I got a Wilbur streaming notification that's poggers).

Tommy cleared his throat, "yeah big man I'm good. What's up?" He lied, paying attention to his voice... too much attention... he spotted every detail, anything he could to point to any femininity. He sounded so girly in his mind. Did he sound that way to everyone else? Everyone sounds different in their head, don't they?? ...maybe everyone already knew. Maybe they all saw him as a girl. They are just being polite aren't they... I mean maybe-