Of maybe's and stolen days

sixth

Silas had always thought his time is limited, parang palagi niyang hinahabol ang oras kasi ang dami niyang gustong gawin, palaging kulang, palaging hindi pwedeng gawin bukas kasi sayang yung panahon na nilaan mo.

For him, his time should never be used to think about the endless what ifs what could have beens and almosts and maybe's

Silas values his time because he had it engraved in his mind that it was limited, mabilis ang pagtakbo nito sa buhay niya.

Everything in his life is fast paced.

That's why when Eli entered the scene it was such a ride of confusion and set back.

Eli made him want to pause the moment, he made Silas want to have more of what he doesn't have.

"Silas, baby, breathe for nanay okay?" He can hear his mother's shaky breath as he took in the air he could

"Okay, hinga ng malalim Silas" sabi ulit ng nanay niya habag hinahagod nito ang likod ng anak

Silas groaned, stopping himself from crying because he doesnt want his mother to see his weakness

"Its okay anak, everything will be fine, you'll be fine baby"

"Nanay" he said while still stopping his tears and groans from falling, breathing hard, hinihingal na parang wala ng hangin ang pumapasok sa kanya

"Nanay is here, anak, just breathe with me?" She continued to caress him on the back while doing the breathing exercises the doctor has taught them before

And all the while his thoughts were filled with the younger boy that made him feel the same way he's feeling right now, the only difference is that, the pain he feels whenever he's with Eli is something he would want to feel again and again.

No, please not now, ang dami ko pang gustong gawin, with my life, for my family, for Saiah, with Eli,

for Eli.

Please let me be with him longer, please

"Hector ihanda mo ang sasakyan!" Sigaw ng nanay niya bago siya pumikit

It was the last thing he remembered before his surroundings went blurry then darkness filled his sight, nothing to be seen

When he opened his eyes again, the thing that greeted him was white ceilings, white walls and white curtains

Of course nasa hospital kami

He felt a hand on his side then that's when he saw Eli, sleeping holding his hand tightly

Silas smiled sadly, because he wanted this, he once day dreamed of seeing Eli when he wakes up, but not this kind. He doesn't want it in this way, not after he almost had his life on the line, not after an accident, not after an episode.

But all the melancholy he felt was soon thrown at the window because he realized that Eli is here and that only means one thing

Eli is here

He knows

Did they tell him?

After a few minutes of just staring into the white walls, the door opened and revealed his brother and surprisingly he was with Saiah

"What are you doing here?" Tanong niya sa dalawa

Isaiah looked hurt, but it was gone for a second because he looked more angry than ever

"Putangina Silas, what do you mean what am i doing here? shit ka Silas, muntikan na, fuck-" pumiyok si Isaiah and he was close to tears, pinipigilan niyang huwag maging mas magalit pa