The girl in the ground {LexaxYou}

13: Costia

The guards left me in Lexa's chambers and locked the door before heading out. I waited patiently for Lexa to come back, and finally, she opened the doors to come inside after an hour or so. I stared at her waiting for one of us to say something, but she didn't seem to be thinking about that so I started the conversation.

"So, who's Costia?" Just as I stopped talking she drifted her gaze towards me. "I mean, I understand that she was your ex-girlfriend or something but I-"

"I get what you're trying to say" She cut me off, exhaling. "She was, in fact, my girlfriend in the past" She moved to sit in the bed and I followed her. After a couple seconds of silence, she started talking once again. "One day, five years ago, the Azgeda clan captured her, cut off her head and sent it to me" She was talking really slow, I noticed how this was still a hard subject to touch for her, no matter how many years passed through. "They knew she was my loved one and wanted to send a message to me: Love is weakness."

"That's horrible Lex..." I wasn't very good at comforting someone as you can see, "What will you do with her?" She seemed thoughtful about it, but after a while she answered.

"She can't stay here because of what she tried to do to you, but I don't think I'm able to tell her to go... not after everything we went through" I nodded on the outside, but on the inside a strange feeling started to take over me. It felt like I was going to vomit but also snap at something at the same time.

"I'll leave you to think about it then" I said rappidly before leaving the room, in the search of a place where I could actually breathe.

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I soon found myself in the woods, sitting in the grass with the whole view of Polis in front of me. I started to think back to my family at first, but quickly realised it wasn't worth thinking about. After that, I thought about how Clarke and my other friends were doing, I wished to be with them just this second, hearing Bellamy complain about everything, Jasper and Monty discussing about anything and everything, Raven struggling to fix something, and chatting with Clarke. That was my favourite part of the first few months in Earth, talking to Clarke and watching her beautiful blue eyes shimmer under the sun light when she talked about something she liked. I loved it, I loved everything about that simple life, I remember it like it was yesterday, waking up and simply getting ready to enjoy everything that surrounded you. That's waht it was for me at least...

Suddenly, I got up and looked back. I'm pretty sure I heard steps behind me... maybe I'm growing mad. A figure, which I could recognise as Costia, got close to me and before I could say anything, she spoke.

"Lexa let me out" I looked at her in suspicion and she swallowed, "I came here to apologise for what I did..." I said nothing. "I know and apology is nothing and I don't expect you to forgive me but I want you to know that I really and actually mean it" She got even closer and looked at the ground, like she wanted us to sit together on the grass. We did, me still not relaxing in her presence and with a damn good reason after all.

"What did you mean with what you said?" I asked, not bothering to pay attention to the heat rising up my cheeks. She took a while to answer, thinking about the question.

"She does love you, you know?" She said softly. "But I'm pretty sure she doesn't even know that yet"

"How can somebody be in love and not know? She'd know if it were real" I said convinced.

"Some people do, some don't and take a while longer to realise" She was clearly much more wiser than I was. "It happened the same way with me, it took her like four months to actually know her feelings for me" She chuckled and so did I. After a silence full with loud thought from both parts, she asked, "Are you..." She stopped as if not wanting to ask such a personal thing for anyone.

"What?" I turned to look at her blue eyes, they reminded me of Clarke's. I shook my head and focused in the conversation I was having.

"Are you in love?" I didn't answer, and to clear it up she added, "With her I mean"

"I don't know... I feel something like it, but I just got off another relationship with someone else and I'm not sure I'm actually ready to accept any kind of feeling for anyone" She hummed in response and I looked away to the amazing view in front of us.

"I think I should leave" She whispered and I nodded with my head. "Y/n" She spoke, making me turn to her, "No matter what, take care of her for me, please" That was the last thing she said before finally leaving.

I decided to stay a couple of minutes more before standing up and walking towards the biggest building in the city.

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Short chapter!! I know I took a looooong time to post this, but I'm focusing in my studies and it's been draining my time and will to do anything that isn't sleep. I'll try to post more frequently but I can't promise anything :(

Anyway, I hope you liked it!!

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