I put my pathetic self behind and
clung on to him.
But he simply said, "I don't want to
say that I love someone so easily...
If you are desperate to hear it,
then find someone else."
That was what he said. Then he ran
off. My legs felt numb... I collapsed
to the ground. He didn't want to
say it easily... How could he... At
that moment, I felt that... Maybe
he is not the right guy for me...
After that day, I found myself
stranded at home crying everyday.
He didn't call me even though I
waited for his call. He continued
handing me a little doll every
morning outside my house. That's
how those dolls piled up in my
room... Everyday.
After a month, I pull myself
together and went to school. But
the pain resurfaced when I saw him
on a street with another girl... He
had a smile on his face, one that
he never showed me... I ran
straight back home and looked at
the dolls in my room. Tears fell...
Why did he give these to me...
Those dolls are probably picked
out by some other girls... In a fit of
anger, I threw the dolls around.
Then suddenly, the phone rang. It
was him. He told me to come out
to the bus stop outside my house. I
tried to calm myself down and
walked to the bus stop. I kept
reminding myself that I am going
to forget him and this is going to
end. Then he came into my sight,
holding a big doll.
Jin: Jo, I thought you were pissed,
you really came?
I couldn't help hating himfor
acting like nothing had happened
and making a joke out of it. Soon,
he held out the doll as usual to
hand it over to me.
Me: I don't need it.
Jin: What? Why?
I grabbed the doll from his hands
and threw it on the road.
Me: I don't need this doll, I don't
need it anymore!! I don't want to
see a person like you again!
I spitted out all the words that
were inside me. But unlike other
days, he was shaking.
"I'm sorry" He apologized in a tiny
voice. He walked over to the road
to pick up the doll...
Me: You are so stupid! Why are
you picking up the doll?! Just throw
it away!!!
But he ignored me and went to
pick the doll. Then...
