Honk~ Honk~
With a loud honk, a big truck was
heading towards him.
"Jin! Move! Move away!" I
shouted... But he didn't hear me as
he squatted down and picked up
the doll.
"Jin, move!" HONK~!!
"Boom!" A terrifying sound rang
through the whole neighbourhood..
That's how he left me. That's how
he went away without even
opening his eyes to say one word
to me.
Since that day, I had to go through
everyday with guiltiness and
sadness of losing him.
After spending two months in
despair, I took out the dolls. Those
were the only gifts he left me since
the day we started going out. I
remembered the days I spent with
him and started to count the
number days when we were in
love...
"One... Two... Three..." That was
how I started to count the dolls...
"Four hundred and eighty four...
Four hundred and eighty five..." It
ended with 485 dolls.
I started to cry again with a doll in
my arms. I hugged it tightly and
then suddenly...
"I love you~, I love you~" I
dropped the doll in shock.
"I.... lo..ve... you??" I picked up the
doll and pressed it's stomach.
"I love you~ I love you~" It can't
be! I pressed all the dolls on their
stomachs.
"I love you~"
"I love you~"
"I love you~"
Those words came out non-stop.
I... love you... Why didn't I realize
that? His heart was always by my
side protecting me! Why didn't I
realize that he loved me this much?
I took out the doll under the bed
and pressed it's stomach. That was
the last doll. The one that fell on
the road. It had his blood stain on
it. I recognized the voice that I was
missing so much.
"Jo... Do you know what day is
today? We've been loving each
other for 486 days. Do you know
what 486 is? I couldn't say I love
you.... Um... Since I was too shy...
If you will forgive me and take this
doll, I will say I love you everyday
till I die... Jo... I love you..."
The tears came flowing out of my
eyes. Why? Why? I asked god. Why
do I only know about all this now?
He can't be by my side but he
loved me until his last minute...
For that reason... To me... It
became courage... To live a
beautiful life.
If you love someone, let him/her
know. Live a life bravely and
truthfully and you will have no
regrets.
