The first step you have to take if you want to find your way back is to acknowledge that you are lost.
Kailangan alam mo na nawawala ka.
Kailangan alam mo na hindi ka buo. Kailangan alam mo na may nagbago. Why? Because the more you pretend to be alright, the more you won't get over it. The more na iisipin mong maaayos pa, the more na mawawasak ka.
Personally, it's the most difficult step: to take the first step.
Bakit? Dahil mahirap ibalik ang sarili mo sa reyalidad. Mahirap aminin sa sarili mo na hindi ka na tulad ng dati. There are days when you will be in denial. You will refuse to acknowledge the state that you are in. Dahil iyon naman talaga ang pinakanakakatakot harapin: yung katotohanan. Yung totoo na wala na kayo, na hindi magiging kayo, na hindi na siya babalik, na hindi mo na maaayos, na tapos na...na dapat tumigil na.
It's difficult, but you have to face it. You have to acknowledge that you are lost, na hindi mo alam kung saan ka patungo. You have to take the first step, so that the journey could start.
Easier said than done, but remember that there is no timeline for healing. You don't have to force yourself to do something you are not ready for. So, it's okay to be in denial. It's okay to be stuck in a loop of start and restart for a while. That's normal. Dadating din yung araw na magiging handa kang mag-umpisa.
