Never Together

15: 3rd Month and Missing Chew

Sana's POV:

It was the day of our first comeback of the year, the 3rd month since Tzuyu left me alone. To say that I was mad because on all of the times I have sent her messages, she only seen zoned me, was wrong. I truly understood why Tzuyu left JYP, I understand now why she did it. I can't stop messaging her though, it has only been three months and second day since she dropped off the baked goodies for us along with Mina's birthday cake. I wanted to see her, I wished for the nth time today that my Magazine Photoshoot had finished early, then maybe, just maybe, I'll be able to meet Tzuyu again. We were getting our make up done, I was already done and was now waiting for the rest of Twice to get ready.

I've read the first of the three letters Tzuyu left to Yoo. The one labeled 'When you're feeling sad.' I read this letter once I was back at the dorm, a day after I was hospitalized. It brought me great comfort, despite her absence, it felt like she was just in Taiwan and would be back soon from her vacation. She really knows the right things to say. She was the sole person among my members that knows how to make me smile. She was the only one who I told all my worries about being a member of Twice. She was the only person who cradled me in her arms that night Dahyun missed practice. She was the only person who listened to me cry, she was the only one who cooed me to sleep.

She has seen me at my worst days, she was the first person who knew me as Minatozaki Sana, the girl who trained tirelessly for three years at JYP Entertainment. My favorite memory of us was that same night when Dahyun missed practice. That night as she cuddled me into her arms as I cried my heart out from all the exhaustion and desperation I felt, she whispered these words to me; 'You are a Minatozaki, you could've been a Japanese Royal, I'm sure we'll go through everything with out a hitch, I'm always rooting for you, Sana Unnie.' I heard her say those words before finishing things off with a light chuckle. She wiped my tears and told me to sleep, she reasoned that I needed to sleep, because we have a long day for the next 3 days.

She held me tighter into her arms, she allowed me to sleep for the night. Had this been on a normal setting, I'd be sleep walking and talking. Momo my bestie has witnessed countless nights of me sleep walking and talking. But that was the first night I haven't slept walk and talked. Mic was especially vigilant towards me, because the first night back from the hospital, I began sleep walking and talking again, Mic even filmed me on that episode of sleep walking and talking. She showed me the following morning.

Mic sleeps now cuddling me, her legs are on top of mine. So that I wouldn't sleep walk. So far, she was awakened by me sleep talking and crying. She whispers to me to hush and that Tzuyu and I will be together soon. Then according to her, I'd fall back asleep. I was so lucky that I have a member like Mic. Jihyo was the literal God among the members. The power of her voice was enough to shut Park PDnim down or anyone who chooses to criticize her. Truly her nickname God Jihyo suited her well. She served as the protector of Twice against Park PDnim. I was brought out of my own reverie when Momo sat beside me.

"My Satang is lost in thoughts again, mind sharing your thoughts? Is it Baby Chu again?" Momo said as she tucked a stray hair back behind my ears.

"I miss her, Momo." Was the only thing I could say without crying.

My mind kept berating me not to cry, because it'll ruin my make up. Momo suddenly smiled at me and encircled me in a hug.

"I know she heard of our scheduled comeback, she'll probably watch your performance, so stop feeling sad. Smile, my Satang, don't let anyone's decision fall heavy on you. Tzuyu didn't decide to leave JYP because of you, she decided she had enough of Park PDnim, always keep that in mind." Momo whispered into my ears and continued to linger into the hug.

She pulls away after a minutes of silence.

"Smile, my lovely bestie. Smile for Tzuyu and our onces." Momo said.