A Girl Named Jude| A Jonnor Story

Chapter One

"Good morning, darling" Mom says as I walk into the kitchen for breakfast. I sit in the same spot I have since the day I got here and cover the plate of pancakes Mama set in front of me in syrup. It feels weird to think how the first time I had breakfast here was only about a year ago.
Mama puts her plate in the sink," Five minutes guys. We gotta go!" I scarf down the rest of my pancakes, grab my backpack and head to the car.
I don't really enjoy school. A lot of kids don't like me very much and the rest of them still don't even know who I am. Except Connor, he's been there for me all this time. He's funny and smart; there's really no reason not to like him. I think I've had feelings for him since we did an math project together at the beginning of last year.
I could never tell Connor how I feel. If he didn't like me back I would lose my only companion. I guess I would still have Taylor but we don't really know each other that well. We're really only friends because Connor dated her best friend Daria and we all stayed friends after they peacefully broke up. Even though Daria isn't really my cup of tea I can't help but wish I was her. I mean she's pretty, she has a great body, and a new boyfriend. Which is exactly what I don't have.
My thoughts are interrupted by Jesus clearing his throat,"Jude." "Uh..what?" "...you gonna get out of the car?" I apologize quickly and dart off to the school building. As I walk in I see the halls flooded with kids. One stands out in particular. He's turned away from me, leaning against his locker flirting with a random girl. It doesn't bother me that he's a flirt because he never actually seems to care about those girls.
I tap on the shoulder of his green plaid shirt with the pads of two fingers. He turns around, ignoring the girl who once had his attention. "Hey Jude, what's up?" he says with a picture perfect smile. "Did you do the science homework?" I ask. "No...could I pretty please copy yours?" he says pushing his smile farther up his face and raising his eyebrows. "Maybe if I'm feeling generous" I gloat. I actually love when he copies my homework. He always sits a little to close when he goes to jot down my answer and our legs touch.

After homeroom I'm just waiting for lunch. The periods go by too slowly but when the bell finally rings I rush outside to get to the lunch table. Connor and Daria aren't here yet so I sit and smile at Taylor.

Connor struts toward our table and swings his back off. He runs his fingers through his hair and smiles at me. I look down at my hands so he can't see me blush but I can feel Taylor staring me down. I think she knows I like Connor. She has hinted before that some one in our friend group could be gay. But I'm not gay; I don't like girls.

When I get home I lay in bed and take out my phone. I open up instagram and refresh my feed. The selfie of a beautiful girl pops up. She has gorgeous long hair, perfect make up, and just the right amount of cleavage. I look down at myself and cringe. I hate my body. My torso is like a sheet of paper and my hips are too narrow. Walking towards the mirror on the wall I start to tear up. I hate being this way and I hate seeing a boy in the mirror. It's painful to hear people call me by male pronouns. Especially Connor, of course he doesn't mean to hurt me; he has no idea I'm a girl...

Connor's POV(this wont happen often):
I'm so confused about how I feel. I have so many feelings for Jude. It terrifies me to admit it but I have feelings for him. He's always been more than a casual friend to me. We connect on a level I've never even been on. But I have never liked any other boys. I don't find any other boys attractive. I'm only attracted to girls...except Jude. He's so different. I can't really understand why I like him. It's like I feel about him the same way I feel about girls.
I snap back into focus when I hear the crash of my dad slamming the door. I scurry to look like I've been doing my homework this whole time. He comes up to the kitchen table. " How are your grades lately, son?" I clear my throat," I have all A's except english. I have a B in english." He rubs his head as if he's worried about me. " You can't be slacking off in school. You've also started slacking at baseball practice and that needs to stop." What? I worked my butt off at baseball yesterday.

Once he walks away Jude is back on my mind. Why do I like a boy? I don't even see Jude as a boy; he's just someone I'm crazy about.

(Hope you enjoyed chapter one!! There will be much more to come and its only going to get better! If you have any suggestions or thoughts please leave a comment!)
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