The Healing of a Mistrusting Heart

The year was 2018, and I was starting my first day in a new school. I transferred schools because my mother was drinking to an obsessive degree, and I was forced to be separated from her and live with my sister. I was totally new and when starting eight grade in a new district and school, it's extremely difficult to make friends. I was alone for the fist month of school.
In earlier years when I dated my first girlfriend, I felt like I could be with her for a long time. I was so happy that I didn't notice when she started cheating on me. It hurt me to an excessive degree, but the worst part was when she broke up with me to be with him. I learned that the person she cheated on me with was my own brother. Later I went as a third wheel on one of their dates to the movies and I needed to take pictures of them being a couple. It broke my heart and my trust in everyone. I became reserved and didn't share any of my emotions with anyone. I became heartless and loved no one. I mention this because this part of me was affected in that school year. I changed and became more open.
A month into school I made a group of friends that I enjoyed spending time with, and one of the people in that group I started dating. Her name was Levious, but her nickname was Levi. I started dating her, but I didn't love her one but. I fully expect our relationship to last less than a week. As I dated Levi I started developing feeling of love towards her without even realizing it. I was still reserved and didn't share my feeling with her, but I shared more of everything with her than I did with my own family
Our relationship lasted for the whole school year and we only ever broke up because I had to move back with my mom. Before that happens though I went on a discovering path of myself. Levi helped me open my true feelings and how I felt. I realized that I truly did love her, and I wanted to be with her for a long time. I had also started cutting myself around that time and she noticed the cuts on my arm and was genuinely worried about me, something I never thought anyone would ever do. I promised her that I would stop and I have.
I promised her so many things, and I want to keep my promises to her. I promised I would be more open with everyone and that I would share my thoughts and my feeling with others.
Levi made me who I am today, she helped me open myself up and I am grateful for ever she had done for me. To this day I still loved her, and I will keep loving her for as long as I can. Unfortunately we're no longer together and it hurts me so much not being with her, but I am still grateful to her.

(Levi if for some odd reason reading this. Sorry.)