I woke up and thank goodness I dreamed in color after that. I sat up and remembered what happened. I got out of bed and pulled off my shorts that I wear to bed and put on black skinny jeans and then flung off my baggy shirt and put on my black frilly tank top and then put on my maroon sweatshirt because it was kinda cold in my house. I walked down The stairs in bare feet and stepped on a Lego. I sat back on The stairs and held my foot "ow" I said quietly I picked it up and watched The stairs the rest of The way down to the kitchen I grabbed some danishes filled with cheese and strawberry jam. I grabbed a big glass of milk and shoved the danishes in my pocket I walked down the hall with framed pictures of my "mother and father" and of me as a little girl when I was first adopted
I was the last one left of all the little 4 years olds. I can't believe I have been in this place for a year. I was alone once again. None of the kids liked me anyways. I walked out of my "room" which was labeled 318 and walked up to one of the ladies. "Alice?" I said quietly, she looked down at me and picked me up "yes little one?" She said in a sweet tone. "Will I ever be adopted?" I said looking at The floor about to cry "of course baby girl." She put me down and kissed my forehead. I went to my room once again and sat there for a minute. I stared at my feet for awhile and then quickly snapped my head up when I seen alice staring at me "come on hunny.. There is a nice couple and they are here to maybe adopt you." I was filled with all kind of emotions but ones thing is for sure they will never be my real parents. No one can change that. I followed alice to a small room and sat in the chair I have sat in so many times before and smiled at the couple sitting across from me. They looked at me and asked me a few things. "What's you name?" They asked first "hazel" I said a little quiet "what do you like to do?" They asked next "I like to read a lot and alice even taught me how to knit some stuff" I said confident they would like that I am a very independent little lady they looked over to Alice and nodded she quickly jumped up and came back a few minutes then handed the couple a small stack of paper they signed everything and filled it out the papers and Alice brought me to the hallway and spoke quietly to me "that nice couple agreed to adopt you so your going to be going home with them I know your gonna miss all the big kids And stuff but you have to be strong ok?" I nodded with my head faced the floor and thought to myself "I'm gonna miss her so much" she bent down and hugged me and said "I'm gonna miss you hazel" at that point I wanted to cry but i didn't want to look bad in front of my new "family"
When we got home they took me to my new room and locked me in there they didn't feed me all day. That's when I started the harm. Only at 4. I took safety scissors and ran them across my thigh. All I know is it bled and it felt good.
I snapped back to reality and I was sitting on the couch next to mariah and they were eating the danishes and passing around the big glass of milk. I smiled as I woke from my stupid flashback. I looked up at The girls and they looked at me. They all of a sudden jumped up and and came over to me "your birthdays soon isn't it?!" Madalynn cried "yup in a week or so it will be my 18th birthday" the girls looked at me wide eyed and finally madalynn spoke "18.... So your going to move out?" "WHAT?! I WOULD NEVER LEAVE YOU!" they looked at me for a second then realized I was being serious.. I wasn't going to leave them.. I never will.. I did want to get them out of there though.. Anything I could do is what will happen to save them all. I walked upstairs after kissing the girls on their foreheads and walked up to my room and put on my black skinny jeans and a black tank top then put on a yellow shirt over it and threw on a gray sweater and pulled out my long brown hair I pulled back my bangs then pulled on my neon pink socks and pulled on my high top all black converse then ran down to the bathroom and brushed my hair quickly and pulled out my make up bag and reached in and grabbed my eye liner and applied it to my bottom eye lid. I quickly put it away and walked out of the bathroom and walked down the stairs out the front door and down the street I walked down to the school I used to go to before I switched to online schooling and waited for anthony to walk out of school I know it sounded kinda stalkerish but I liked to watch him come out of the building and walk home.. I actually talked to him once I asked him if he knew where "my" cat went and showed him a picture of a cat and he said "no, I'm sorry I haven't" he took my hands in his and said "I hope you find your cat hazel" he walked away quickly and didn't look back. How did he know my name?" I didn't mind. He was amazing. His blue eyes were like an ocean and his curly hair fell in front of his eyes and curled at the end. He was so amazing. I watched him walk down the road to his house which was only a block away from the school, Hus house is yellow and has white frames for windows and a white door. The house was even amazing. I sat in front of his house and stared at the door suddenly he came out again andlooked at me I was speechless his eyes were confusing me "uh, hi" I said then I stood up quickly and started to walk away "hold on.." He said towards me I quickly came to a stop and turned around "yes?" I said shyly "your names hazel right?" I smiled at The floor and replied "yes" he smiled at me. God I love his smile. "Hey um, you maybe wanna hang out some time?" I completely freaked out "sure!" I said I smiled at him once more and walked down the street to my house and sat on the porch and smiled the whole rest of the day.
