Letting Go Of My Pain [Series On Hold For Now]

chapter 8

I had a episode.

-                  Once again I have to move this is the second time this year that's bullshit. Yet after our sudden out burst or should I say Maddie's sudden out burst none of us had talk to each other yet. But i can tell her words did really hurt dad. I was thinking about talking to him but he probably do not want to see any of us now. Why the fuck do o care so much about how they feel?. I have never been like this. Yet I do not want to hurt them. Maddie and Max had almost healed from their scars. Yet the voices will not leave me alone. Do you really think a lovely family like this will ever love you? They do love me. No they don't because your not meant to be loved. Remember what master said or shall we remind you how he beat you to your nearby death and printed those words into your head that nobody will ever love you and let's face it he was a 100% right. STOP. Why should we we are only stating the truth. STOP!! . hahaha you weak pathetic boy. STOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

-                 I am working in my office when I heard a loud thud. It sounded like it has come from Mason's office. I am getting worried so I waste no time and ran to his office. I burst open the door and see him crashing everything. "Brother calm down" I try to sound as calm as possible. "Fuck office Maxwell" he growl at me. But how can I fuck off when my brother is having a panic attack. I try to put my hand on his shoulder but he twisted my arm and threw me into the wall. He was breathing heavily.  The door burst open and I see everyone standing there just not mom and Maddie. Thank god. "Guys get out of here right now" I tell them calmly because Mason I at the stage where he will kill anyone that gets in his way. " Mason listen to me it's not real" I try to tell him. " I know its not real none of this is real" he growl and punch me. I stubble back and see him and our brothers fighting but he threw Lushin across the room making him labs on a table. I hear him groan. He punch and kick everyone in his way.

-                     All i see is red and Matt is everywhere yet I hear Max's voice.

-                         I came back from the meeting and I see in the hallway Maddie is standing outside Mason's office. I knew something happen so I ran and open the door. Enzo is standing by the door along with his father. And the boys are all in pain and groaning. Mason is trashing everything in hi office. Enzo push me back but I ingore him and step forward. Mason looks at me with pitch black eyes. "Boys go outside please" i tell them. "No mom are you kidding do you see how fucking mad he is"? Rhapheal yelled. "Just go I know what I am doing " I tell them. They all nod and left leaving me in the room with a Mason that looks like he is on a verse of killing a rampage. "Hey it's okay it's find" I spoke softly. I started slowly walking towards him. " No no it's not I have to save her he raped her I have save her" he say. " It's fine okay it's okay" I spoke once again. At this point I am standing in front of him. "No it's not I can't even protect my own sister I can't even do one job right I cannot do anything right for God's sake. What kind of brother does that make me". I bring him in for hug and he sobbed in my neck. "I am so sorry I let you down m" i hear him mubble. This broke my heart into a million pieces. "Shhh my sweet boy i am not mad nor have you let me down I am so proud of what my son has become". I say. "Thank you mom"
I hear the door open and Enzo standing there. He comes over and join the hug. "We are so proud of son and we always  will be" he whisper to Mason.

So sorry for the short chapter and for not posting in a while I have been busy with school but the next part will be about nothing but Leo and his personality and how he is like so yea that and his dominate side. Lord I tell you this is going to be such a dirty book