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002 - Subtle, Yet Not Simple

CW // Not Loving Your Appearance (Even though you should, you're beautiful/handsome!) , Talk Of Panic Disorder, Panic Attacks

If you looked at yourself, and put you in a crowd of people, and asked someone to point you out after giving them a glance at a photo of you, they wouldn't be able to find you. You just didn't stand out, and it was that. You just didn't have the thing, the things that make people stand out, like (insert dyed hair color you want (if you don't have dyed hair, or if you want idrc)) hair, or being a hybrid. You just didn't have anything like that.

As Fundy escorts you to the hotel, you see it's small, looking subtle, yet not too simple, kind of like you. If you looked at yourself, people would think standard twenty year-old living in a village, but you were so much more. You'd seen so much, so many bodies. It changes a person, for better or for worse. You also were a deadly thing, from being in so many battles and duels. You were one to use word before actually battling, though. You believed everything could be resolved with smarts, and brute strength was over-rated.

As Fundy led you to your room, you thanked him, saying, "Thank you. And tell your father I'll be out in a few minutes, okay?" He nodded, and walked out. You locked the door, and took one of your bags and opened the flap that closed the leather bag. You had multiple outfits inside, but you wanted something comfy. You took out a pale green sweater with a bright blue tee-shirt to go under it, and some jeans, as it was fall and getting colder out.

You changed and walked out your room and the building as well to see the boys outside, and a beautiful lady standing with them and talking with them. She had either had a very light brown shade of hair, or had dirty blonde hair, something you could not tell. But she had rounded glasses she had just took off, and Wilbur took off his earlier as well too. You guessed they didn't need them, oh well.

Having said that, Fundy walked up to you and grabbed your hand, dragging you over to them. The girl notices you, and you realize she's not too much younger than you, by maybe a year or two.

"Hi, I'm Niki." she says, and you shake her hand.

"(y/n), (y/n) (l/n). Nice to meet you Niki." you reply. She seemed so kind, yet an image of a tree burning before her, a match at her hand flashed your mind for a split second. You must of had some imagination to think of such image about such a sweet girl, right? You shook it off and spoke with her a little more, learning she actually is a year younger than you.

You suddenly feel the ground rumble, almost knocking you off your feet as you hear explosions. Shit, their war is starting, isn't it? I mean, it already had. You look to the left of you, run over with Niki scared into running after you, not wanting to be alone.

You see a burning home. Fuck! Goddamn it, now you're stuck here and you won't find your village's arsonist!

You rush over to the area, seeing a man with sunglasses, Fundy, Tommy, Tubbo, and Wilbur in the area, along with people standing in front of the house, who you've never seen. The one speaking had a green hoodie, smiley mask that was crudely drawn, something a child would make, and shadowy black jeans.

He was making a speech, one of which I didn't care for until he said, "I wanna see white flags, white flags outside your base tomorrow, at dawn or you are dead!" Which worries me, since half is our army is children. No way we're winning now, and to think of the kids, oh god. Let's hope they don't lose all three lives here, or a single one in fact.

"Shit! This isn't good..." you mutter. "Oh Irene help us."

"You mean Mojang?" Niki asks, yet her voice is shaky.

"Whatever god or gods you believe in, any of them would help in a situation like this. With half our army being kids... well I'm just worried for them. Plus the fact they said we needed to surrender before tomorrow, we'll things look grim." you tell her, images of bodies lying on the ground flash through your mind, you shiver with fear at the thought of those kids being those bodies.

They leave, and you start to shake, like a shiver, except it doesn't stop. Shit! Not another panic attack. You feel your breathing get heavy, and you start to shake a bit, not violently but to a point it's more than just a shiver. The world spins for a couple moments then stops, then it happens again, on and off. Niki seems to notice this, and puts her hand on your back.

"Hey, it's gonna be alright. We're going to be okay, and so are the kids, just try and take deep breaths, okay? In, out, in, out." she said in a soothing voice, rubbing circles onto your back and showing you how to breath. You calm down after about thirty minutes.

"Thank you so much Niki. Also, how did you know what to say? Do you know somebody with panic disorder too?" you ask. Panic disorder was what gave you such sudden panic attacks, luckily they never happen in battle. But anything can happen, which is why you take your meds, you don't want it to happen too often. This was the first one since the village burnt down, you had started to have one after you were about a mile (1.6 kilometers) from the village.

"No on the panic disorder, but I've been called calming when people are venting to me, and they say I give good advice, so I think that's how helped." Niki replies, and I nod. I guess she really is sweet, there's no need to worry after all I guess, she wouldn't burn aa tree down, she's too kind... right?

[[ Love Meter Update :: New Character (Meaning Others Won't Be Updated, as They Stayed The Same) ]]

Niki Nihachu ;; 20% She feels as though you'd be great friends! She also feels it's her duty to be there for you when you have a panic attack now, and she probably won't leave your side now.