"just" roommates

eleven

"You're sure he's not busy? He doesn't have any streams or George isn't going to bother us or...", Clay cuts me off by pressing his lips against mine.

It's been a little over two weeks since we first started indirectly introducing Sapnap to the idea of joining our relationship.

We've been keeping it as subtle as possible, but we've slowly started getting a little more anxious about it.

"Will, I promise that he has the entire night free. I told him I wanted to watch the game, so he'll be in the living room in five minutes.", Clay mumbles, his forehead pressed against mine.

I pull away, nervously toying with the bottom of my shirt.
"I don't know, is this too weird? Maybe we should wait longer.", I murmur.

Clay sighs, wrapping his arms around my waist and resting his head on top of mine.

"If you don't want to do this tonight or at all, we don't have to. I'll take the lead on this, Will. I promise. You don't even have to be there if you don't want to be.", Clay whispers, his eyes only looking at me in the mirror.

Footsteps pass by the door, and I can't help but stiffen up in his grasp.

"Willow, we don't have to do anything you're not ready for.", Clay softly reminds me again.

I pull away and take a deep breath before grabbing his hand.

"I'm ready. I want to. I just don't want anything to go wrong.", I admit.

Clay grimaces.

"Me neither. This is kind of a weird, delicate situation, and yeah, it could go wrong. But I have a good feeling about this. Plus, I'm normally never wrong.", he teases.

I roll my eyes at him.

That's the Clay I know and love.

I don't know how his neck can hold such a giant head.

"Okay. I trust you.", I admit, taking his hand.

Clay has to pull a little harder than normal to get me to follow him out of the bedroom, but I still follow regardless.

Sapnap is sitting on the couch, one leg crossed over the other.

He's scrolling through Netflix, trying to decide on something to watch.

"Hey, Sap.", Clay casually starts, sitting on the other end of the couch, pulling me down to sit in-between the two of them.

I realize how stiffly I'm positioned, and I force myself to relax.

I don't know why this is so hard.

"What's up?", Sapnap's eyes don't leave the television.

"I, well, we want to talk to you about something."

Okay, maybe I shouldn't have let Clay take the lead.

Sapnap's expression quickly changes, his face falling.

His mind flashes with possibilities.

Is he getting kicked out? He knew he would end up doing something stupid or wrong and getting kicked out.

He really doesn't want to go back to living with his family; he has enjoyed having freedom here.

"It's not bad, I promise.", I gently speak up.

I can see the worry in his eyes, and I don't want to stress him out more than we already have.

Now he looks more confused than anything else.

"We wanted to talk to you about our relationship.", Clay tries his best to not just blurt out what I know he's dying to ask.

If it's possible for Sapnap to look more confused, he does.

"Like us or you and her or?", he tries to clarify.

I seriously hope the couch swallows me whole, I don't want to be here anymore.

"All of us.", Clay replies.

I feel like I should probably be helping more than I am, but I can barely breathe without wanting to cry or empty my stomach.

"Listen, I don't know what you think happened between me and her, but I-"

Clay cuts Sapnap off by shaking his head.

"No. I don't care what happened between you two. Will and I have been talking about you. I think it's pretty obvious you two have something for each other. I don't know how you feel about me, but I'm not embarrassed to admit I feel something between us too. So, basically, we were wondering if you would want to be a part of our relationship?", Clay finally asks the question we've been talking about for a few days now.

Sapnap's cheeks turn a deep red, but I can tell he's hiding a smile.

"Wait, seriously?"

I can also tell that he has no idea if we're messing with him or if we're actually serious.

"Absolutely yes.", I grin, taking his hand.

His eyes dart to Clay like he's going to be strangled at any minute.

"Want more proof?", I tease, scooting closer to him.

His eyes finally land on mine, and he raises an eyebrow.

"Can I kiss you?", I ask him softly.

He nods, realizes he is way too excited, and opts to reply with a soft "yes" instead.

I lean forward, connecting my lips with his.

He kisses a little more aggressively than Clay, but that comes with the difference in experience level too.

"Now do you think we mean it?", I tease, Clay wheezing out a loud laugh behind me.

Sapnap still seems a bit unsure, but that's to be expected for a bit.

I lean against Sapnap, my head resting against his arm.

Clay scoots closer, pressing me tightly between the two of them.

He wraps an arm around both of us, and I can feel Sapnap tense as Clay's right hand rests on his shoulder.

I pat his thigh, a silent way to tell him to relax.

This concept is pretty new to all of us, so it's going to take some adjustment.

Clay leans his head enough to rest it on top of mine.

"I could get used to this.", Sapnap mumbles, gently setting his hand on top of mine.

Clay chuckles while I let out a little hum of agreement.

I could definitely get used to this.