Him

Chapter 2

Whoa. Most awkward hand shake ever. I let go of his hand quickly, I clear my throat and step back. You can defiantly feel the awkward tension between us.

"So you're officially a Beta huh?" Good one Hazel. He's obviously moving into the Frat house next door that happens to be named Beta.

He giggles and I swear he kind of has the same laugh as Austin. Shit. Austin. His parents were supposed to come by today and pick me up to visit the cemetery.

"Hazel?" I snap my eyes back to him.

"Huh?"

"I said if you're okay? You kind of had that look, like if you forgot something."

"Yeah actually I have to get going. My boyfr- I mean my friends parents are going to come any minute now. Tell Izzy that something came up. It was nice meeting you- Lucas. See you around." I wave and smile and dismiss myself.

I almost said boyfriend. My boyfriend is dead. Ugh what is going on with me.

I go back into the house and quickly shower. Once I'm done I change into my favorite jeans and wear one of Austin's band sweaters . It's his favorite band Coldplay. I feel the tears slowly forming in my eyes. No Hazel not now. Linda won't be happy.

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Lana looks good as always. I can tell she lost weight and so did Mr. Keys.

"Hazel honey!" I smile as I approach them.

I give Lana a hug and also one to Mr. Keys.

"Hello Mrs. Keys and Mr. Keys." Tears are stinging my eyes. Oh my, how I miss them and their son.

"Hazel don't cry- not now at least." I giggle at Mr. Keys attempt to make me laugh. Good one sir it worked.

"Well shall we go?" Lana asked. All I can do is nod and wipe my eyes.

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His stone is shiny. They must have polished it or something. Austin parents are currently grieving. I let them have their moment with their son.

I look around me and see so many stones with flowers. This place saddens me. I hate it. I hate the feeling every time I'm here. I wish Austin was still here with me. I wouldn't even be here in the first place if he was still here. I hear the sound of thunder all of a sudden. Seriously out of all the times it starts raining now. Great. I walk back to where Austin is buried. His parents look about done.

"We'll be waiting in the car." I nod.

I sit down by his grave. How to start man? Is he even going to be listening?

Here it goes.

"Austin, there's not a day I go by without missing you. You have no idea what I go through. It's been a long and I mean long hectic year. Can you believe that my dad made me see a therapist. Yeah, well neither can I. At first I wasn't happy but after a few visits it wasn't so bad. Her name is Linda by the way. We talk about you way too much."

*Thunder noises*

Oh great it's raining hard now!!

"Oh, would you look at that. It's rainingn really hard. I remember how much you loved the rain. Yeah- good times" I sigh.

"Linda says I should move on. That it will help me but I don't know. I'm not sure I want to, I don't want to betray you in any kind of way. I just need time I guess." There's a long pause without me saying a word.

Man how I miss him. I really fucking miss Austin. The tears are streaming down my face. I can't stop the sob that comes out.

"Austin! I am nothing without you! Why You?! Why! Why!" I'm screaming now. I'm yelling at a grave knowing that he can't hear me. I just miss him so much.

I am soaked from head to toe. Stupid rain go away.

I am sobbing so hard that I don't even notice the figure standing in front of me. What is he doing here.

"Lucas?" I whisper.

*Oh my god. hi haha. Is this good so far or nah. And I wrote this chapter while hearing Moments by 1D and I cried. :( *