"Tommy, do you have, uh, something you want to put on the floor here?"
This was the daily routine: Dream wakes me up, I give him my things, and we go do something productive, like, mining or getting wood, and we just talk. Afterall Dream's my friend, he's here to watch over me. I'm not completely alone anyway, I have my brother, Ghostbur with me, and Dream visits every day. Other people have come around too like Ranboo and Badboyhalo. It's not like I don't have friends. Right now, Ghostbur's back in L'manburg, he promised to bring me back some pictures, hopefully he'll be back soon, it gets a little lonely... I really miss Tubbo.
Days have passed or maybe even weeks, I've started to lose track of time, when was the last time I've seen or spoken to anyone other than Dream? Ghostbur hasn't been around for a while, though I'm not sure where he went. I would keep a journal if I didn't think that Dream will just take it away. I've been here alone for so long that I've lost my sense of purpose and generally myself. There was a word that Wilbur taught me back when he was alive, languish. That's what I'm doing, I'm languishing. I wish I had my discs.
"You never listen to me, Tommy! You don't listen to anyone at all, not even your best friend. That's why you're exiled. It's not anyone's fault but yours."
Dream's right isn't he, it's my fault that I'm in exile, no one forced me to burn down George's house. I forced Tubbo, my best friend, to do it. No matter how long it's been I can still remember the day I was exiled like it was yesterday.
"Tommy, I am so, so sorry. Dream, I have come to the decision...that will be the best for the nation, the most logical thing to do...for Tommy to be exiled from L'manburg. War is not the best for this nation. Nothing involving any kind of conflict is the BEST for this nation. You guys are thinking emotionally, irrationally. You need to think logically. There are more than us four that live here! War is going to bring destruction, terror, a new regime that we don't want to enforce upon our citizens!"
The rest of the cabinet tried to disagree, we had a plan...how did it all go so wrong?
"Hey everyone! That's enough, that's enough okay? You have undermined my authority from the get-go okay? All of you, no one here has respected me! You all jump on these merry little band-wagons of destruction... It's not okay! You definitely do not have this nation's best interests at heart and you've made that more apparent than ever before, today"
I, of course, argued back, we had a plan, he had agreed with us, how could- no- why would he go back on the plan when it mattered the most.
"When I was sworn in I made a promise, to do what's best for this nation,"
What he said next will echo in my head forever,
"Right now YOU, Tommy, your presence here is not the best for this nation. Dream, please detain and escort Tommy, out of my country."
When he said that, I realized that was not my best friend speaking, that was the president of L'manburg. A couple days before I got exiled I told Ranboo that I had never wanted Tubbo to be president because I knew that if he became president, it would pull us apart. And there I was watching as Tubbo chose his nation, over me, the discs, and everything we've been through together.
Technoblade, my oldest brother visited today. I thought he was going to help me or at least care, but he came to laugh at me. He just laughed, and then left. Who needs him anyway? I was trading letters with Ranboo, but Dream wasn't very happy when he found out so I can't do that anymore. Dream's letting me throw a party soon so I can see everyone at the same time!
Why is no one here? Why did they not show up? They all got the invitations and yet only Dream is here. No one cares, do they? No one cares about me, they all left me here alone and they don't even show up. Not even Ranboo or Tubbo. Only Dream. They don't care, they only cared when I had power, when I had a purpose for them to use. At least Dream's my friend.
I've started to hide supplies and things from Dream. Listen, I love Dream, he's my only friend but he tried to burn- he tried to burn away my memories. I'll be honest with you, I don't know if I run or-no! Why would I run? Dream cares, he does.
He found out, and well- he wasn't very happy. It's gone. It's all gone and I'm alone again. He destroyed it all and left. He was my friend, my only friend. He did so much for me and then he said to me,
"I'll see you, I'll see you every week to come and watch you"
And now he won't, he won't come and watch, to come and watch- see me every week to come and watch me. He would come to watch me. He was literally here to watch me. He- he wasn't here to be my friend. He was just here to watch me. What did he say to me a while back? That I was the only person who never does exactly what he says? He was here to watch me because I'm the only one that Dream's scared of. Forget Dream, and well I don't actually know what I do now, like what comes next, but I'm getting my discs back.
