Messed Up Mind

Messed Up Mind #01

Theme 01: Depression

Nightmare Called Reality

Cold wind, dark sky, moonlight
It's already night and time to dream
But why am I still here?
In a messy reality

Tell me when the light come
And lighten my darkness
Cause night goes too long
I can't wait any longer
Dreamless night always haunted me
As I walk through my reality

I stare at my own reflection in the mirror
It didn't look like me
I thought my sight was mistaken
The truth is, I am no longer me
I become somebody else instead

The reflection of my teardrops, eye bags, and red nose.
Completing my miserable look
Right now, my only goal is to survive another day
Didn't want to end me yet
So I try my best to put my mind back together
And keeping my insanity under control

*****

Before the Scars

It's been a while
Since I felt something
That consume me inside out
Something dark, untouchable
and look like a fog in my head
It covering my sight completely
So I couldn't see a thing

There's also a scary lullaby
that keep telling me to sleep eternally
It messing with my mind all the time
Even when i close my ears

Suddenly, there's a new type of obsession
that appear along with the sick lullaby
The desire to hurt, nobody but myself
Only when the blood flowing down from my wound
The fog inside my head is gone

*****

Dark Times

I turned off the lights
And sat on the corner
With earphone in my ears
I heard the sad song playing

The tears were streaming down my face
When the bad memories came to me like a river
I drowned in emotion
With my tears, I let all the anger out of me

Sometimes it took me an hour to get calm
Sometimes more than an hour
Sometimes I cry so loud
Sometimes I cry in silence

Nobody know about this
I was too scared to tell anyone
That I was weak
All of this time I just pretend to be strong